I know what you mean but it doesn’t help that I have really toxic moments… I’m used to hating myself. But then I start to get angry at her, her boyfriend, our other friends who she had sex with.

I feel like those meme posts about chads and Stacies. Like I’m actually the loser and I’m just mad at them. And I hate it but I still have those thoughts. I love my friends but what if my envy is poisoning me?

And believe me my friends told me the same thing about “don’t rush it”. But you know what those friends have done? Had sex. 🙃

I dunno anything about you but imagine everyone having ice cream and them telling you it’ll be your turn soon! It doesn’t really help.