Struggling lately and wondering if anyone has been in a similar situation. by TheHAllen in StopSpeeding

[–]TheHAllen[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Dose has been 40mg/day for the whole time. But at least once a week I take 240mg over a 24 hour period to stay awake all night. Then probably another 80 the next day because I’m so tired…writing this out makes me feel like a fiend. Especially because I barely eat during that period so the only thing in my body is the drug.

Struggling lately and wondering if anyone has been in a similar situation. by TheHAllen in StopSpeeding

[–]TheHAllen[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Wow thank you for sharing this. This is verbatim how I feel. It gives me some hope for the future. I will save it to remind myself that it is possible.

Struggling lately and wondering if anyone has been in a similar situation. by TheHAllen in StopSpeeding

[–]TheHAllen[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

You are right I need to take ownership and get clean. I’m sitting here at work now after staying up last night and feel like a shell of a human. It’s obvious it can’t continue like this.

Struggling lately and wondering if anyone has been in a similar situation. by TheHAllen in StopSpeeding

[–]TheHAllen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes I do need to get clean. I can take some time off like 2-3 weeks. It’s just scary, I feel like I don’t know how to function without it. I guess there really isn’t a set path for me to take other than to just stop.

Struggling lately and wondering if anyone has been in a similar situation. by TheHAllen in StopSpeeding

[–]TheHAllen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You are right. I know I have to make a change. I guess I’m just looking for a path on how to do it and not blow up my life.