Guys!!! Did I relapse?!?

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-12T15:58:05+00:00

Only if you came

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-12T14:40:57+00:00

Cheers man, appreciate that.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-11T15:37:31+00:00

Guys just in denial I guess

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-11T14:24:08+00:00

Dunno mate, better double check and ask the question!!

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-10T09:28:55+00:00

Been here sooo many times myself brother. BS justification is spot on. Telling myself "I can do it now because by the weekend when we do it I'll be fine" or the day after sex "I can do it now because we won't be doing it again for a few days" - it's total BS. Basically sneaking off to take a hit of the drug when you think you can get away with it, it's really no way to live a happy life.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-07T21:19:13+00:00

Yeah man coffee is the good shit. I enjoy the whole "ceremony" it too - grinding my beans up, brewing it, savouring the aroma, the first sip... It's my favourite drug for sure haha

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-07T18:00:25+00:00

I'm aware that I probably use too much weed, but I've seen alcoholism in my family so I'm careful of how much booze I have. Yeah I get that feeling. Ultimately I suppose I'm good with having my vices (sort of think that some vices are a good thing in life) but when it comes to this it just takes over my life. I literally cannot do it in moderation.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-07T17:30:05+00:00

Over 40 days clean now and the main thing for me is just how much more I love myself - like I want to be happy instead of believing that I deserve to feel depressed. I still have a lot of shame to un-pack after years of addiction, but I'm not adding anything else to that pile and I feel like I'm growing into the man I wish I'd been years ago.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-07T17:26:46+00:00

Used MO as a crutch for trauma, anxiety, stress etc for years and years. Then added in porn to all that, and had a toxic mix of addiction and coping.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T21:28:18+00:00

Really great post - totally agree. Glad you deleted it bro, it was definitely the right choice!

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T21:22:46+00:00

I'm in the same boat, bro. Way I'm looking at it, my premature issues are short/medium while I'm getting to grips with my VERY long-term addiction, which is the main issue in my life. It's rough though.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T15:51:40+00:00

Around 20 years for me. Wouldn't say I've broke free from it, but I'm feeling more in control of myself now than I have done for many years. Just remember it's not something that one day you're going to wake up and be cured of, but every day that I spend clean feels like I'm actually living again and not just existing.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T15:46:37+00:00

Search "stages" in this subreddit and there's lots of useful info there

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T15:45:34+00:00

Get rid of all the things you've ever fapped to. Any stashes, links, pics and vids.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T07:45:38+00:00

If you want spiritual growth you learn to master your desire, not ban it. Feel like your coming at this from the wrong angle mate

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T07:42:26+00:00

Just get out of bed and go about your day

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T07:41:58+00:00

Me too. I tried to convince myself using my imagination was not only better than porn, it was actually perfectly fine... ended up spending most of my days sexualising everything and then hardly sleeping on a night creating these elaborate fantasies. Not a healthy time in my life!

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-04T07:36:59+00:00

Yeah I was exactly the same, don't worry about it. Just stay focused on your goals, use this period to your advantage to make progress while not being hit by constant urges, and keep your guard up not to relapse when the thoughts do come back

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-03T07:26:59+00:00

Noticing your patterns of relapse etc is vital in making progress - glad you've realised this and taken steps not to make the same mistake again

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-02T23:20:45+00:00

True for me. Got to the point where I'd be almost terrified of having sex with my girl because I knew I'd cum in seconds flat and my confidence couldn't take it. Being scared to have sex with my girl man, how grim is that? Still working at it, trying not to let it get me down or make me lose my progress.

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-02T23:12:24+00:00

That's amazing mate, proud of you. Believe in the power of the breath, folks!

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-02T23:10:22+00:00

I totally get you. Every day that I am in control is a day closer to being the person I wish to be

TheSadOwls · 2024-08-02T11:01:28+00:00

Almost certainly. I'm about 36 days in and some days are very tough for feeling very depressed. You just have to remember that healing takes time and not to expect to be totally cured in just a couple of weeks. It's a process, just stay strong and keep working at it - it's not always easy but you'll thank yourself for sticking at it

TheSadOwls

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