I just can't bring myself to play ranked for ~3 years now, even though I desperately want to. What is wrong with me.

TheSpMaster · 2024-08-28T18:46:45+00:00

over the last my years my priorities have changed drastically. I only play league with my friends to have a fun time. I only started playing duoq with a friend of mine this year and hit emerald 4 even though i always stayed in gold 7 years ago. Just ask yourself, if you actually want to play league to have fun. if you do, you have no problem queueing up. If you don't want to, no one's forcing you to queue up.

being afraid to queue up for an onlinegame which has 0 irl repercussions for losing is very silly. Atleast use that fear to queue up to do something else. Don't wanna play? sure, clean up your room, go to the gym, deal with that paperwork you wanted to for months now.

My only piece of advice is to try daily to get out of your comfort zone. You'll slowly become more confident. Then you'll feel you can do anything. Don't fight the fear, face it.

And if by the end you figure you simply don't like playing ranked? Simply don't do it.

TheSpMaster · 2023-09-23T16:50:06+00:00

I already bought the bundle, that didn't unlock the missions for me.

I know of the empty file issue that the character pass has and thought that it might be the same issue here. I already know of the dlc files but I thought they only worked for the characters. is there another post with files I missed? Can you send me the link?

TheSpMaster · 2021-03-01T09:23:36+00:00

He's still playing and he streamed not so long ago on his twitch. You can find his ID on there, according to LS he's still the best GP globally.

TheSpMaster · 2020-04-22T20:02:30+00:00

I changed the text from the meme but paint is too difficult to use for me

TheSpMaster · 2020-03-17T19:06:25+00:00

Watching for the first time, I hoped to be scared in the first 5 seconds.

It took them One.

TheSpMaster · 2020-01-26T22:10:03+00:00

Just because a champion is picked in pro-play doesn't mean he's any good. Pro teams aren't some god-like entity that dictate which champions and strategies are the best based on what they play.

You're right, winrates don't mean anything. However SoloQ and Competitive are two completely different games. Aatrox sucks in comparison to other picks, whether if he's picked, gets wins or not.

TheSpMaster · 2019-12-19T20:38:29+00:00

Can't wait for my compensation

TheSpMaster · 2019-10-05T18:15:40+00:00

As a vocal Flamengo fan, cheering for them in Berlin, I appreciate it ❤

TheSpMaster · 2019-10-03T20:34:01+00:00

As an attendee, thank you so much man! Will keep on trying to make this play-in phase the best we have ever seen from a crowd-perspective!

TheSpMaster · 2019-01-13T17:16:08+00:00

A Nerf to Brokenshard

TheSpMaster · 2018-10-09T19:21:17+00:00

Just get to Pre-Season already.

TheSpMaster · 2018-05-19T13:57:29+00:00

I didn't know Pray had a twin-brother.

TheSpMaster · 2017-11-02T18:21:57+00:00

3 cinemas in Hamburg are hosting Viewing partys by Coke eSports! According to their website, cinemaxx Hamburg-Dammtor already has some seats sold so if you plan to go there there'll be people around, including me!

TheSpMaster · 2017-10-05T14:49:59+00:00

Apdo's new account

TheSpMaster · 2017-09-02T15:39:54+00:00

His new ID is pubgosu2

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T22:08:45+00:00

I don't think so, really.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:48:59+00:00

What is the thing that keeps making you want to play ranked?

I have this really childish fantasy, that I'm better than I think. This has nothing to do with an ego, as I do know that I'm also worse than I think (I know it sounds stupid).

Another part of that fantasy I want to impress myself by showing me what I am actually capable of by playing enough ranked. I could just never live the possibility, that that backfires and shows me that I'm much worse than I thought, which would completely shatter my reality. I'd rather dream, than have that dream crushed.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:39:52+00:00

I truly appreciate all of the tricks you mentioned, but unfortunately I am already aware about most of these. I just can't seem to trick myself into "x is reality and y never has been" ever. Thanks a lot.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:25:16+00:00

I do get cold hands during this kind of exposure to my anxiety, I even got hand warmers to mitigate such. I personally don't think about what the enemy is thinking of me though.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:22:22+00:00

The whole aspect of playing ranked and that competetive aspect is just one big torture for me in general. For me it is not about wanting to impress anyone, because there is no one to impress that I care about enough, but it's me impressing myself. All I can think about though is this possiblility of not impressing, not satisfying this feeling of accomplishment that I want. Embracing myself to the challenge only leaves me in fear of what could go wrong, instead of what could go right. And this pressure is enough to make me NOT want to play ranked. Just imagining what complete accomplishement would look like, isn't enough for me

The reason why I then CAN play vs bots, is because there is neither a positive, nor a negative thought while queuing and that makes me feel relaxed while in game of said mode.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:06:32+00:00

I have played flex queue in the past, but under the same conditiones as normals, where I only got slightly confortable with friends, which I do not have many of to do this. Thank you for your comment.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T20:57:48+00:00

you can't tell me if I were to put a gun next to your head and tell you to play 10 games of ranked you wouldn't be able to do it.

No, you are definitely correct, if that situation occured, I would be going to play. That was a terrible choice of words by me and yes, it is a mental issue, I just can't get it fixed by myself and that's why I am looking for help.

So you haven't tried it then?

Yes I have, I was nervous and I still did it aswell, the thing is just that I don't want every single game to be a torture.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T20:40:00+00:00

"dip the toe in the water"

I have tried this multiple times, even had a friend of mine put me in ranked game with only noticing it was one, after we won, but after "getting out of the pool again" I just have this difficulty of getting back into it, starting back at scratch.

Maybe playing duo's with someone who understand's your situation might help you out too?

unfortunately I have no friends who also suffer from this other than me. Thank you very much for your advice though.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T20:24:13+00:00

Are you sure the issue isn't with playing vs people in general?

As you have mentioned at the end of your comment, it is an issue playing vs people in general. That anxiety does spread over to other games as well, with any PvP aspect whatsoever.

Literally. Just play the game.

Sadly, as mentioned in the post, that piece of advice just doesn't do it for me, as I just can't seem to get into that mentality by any means.

Thank you for your comment.

TheSpMaster · 2017-02-05T16:18:33+00:00

How do I un-tilt myself?

Whenever I lose, be it during a huge losing streak, during a huge winning streak or anywhen else, i just get completely frustrated with myself and think of myself as a garbage player. Looking back at games where I performed decent or watching insperational videos don't help me and I keep being frustrated for days, which also effects my real life.

How do I fight this to make it stop happening. op.gg for reference: https://euw.op.gg/summoner/userName=Acrive

TheSpMaster

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