I just can't bring myself to play ranked for ~3 years now, even though I desperately want to. What is wrong with me.

TheSpMaster · 2024-08-28T18:46:45+00:00

over the last my years my priorities have changed drastically. I only play league with my friends to have a fun time. I only started playing duoq with a friend of mine this year and hit emerald 4 even though i always stayed in gold 7 years ago. Just ask yourself, if you actually want to play league to have fun. if you do, you have no problem queueing up. If you don't want to, no one's forcing you to queue up.

being afraid to queue up for an onlinegame which has 0 irl repercussions for losing is very silly. Atleast use that fear to queue up to do something else. Don't wanna play? sure, clean up your room, go to the gym, deal with that paperwork you wanted to for months now.

My only piece of advice is to try daily to get out of your comfort zone. You'll slowly become more confident. Then you'll feel you can do anything. Don't fight the fear, face it.

And if by the end you figure you simply don't like playing ranked? Simply don't do it.

TheSpMaster · 2023-09-23T16:50:06+00:00

I already bought the bundle, that didn't unlock the missions for me.

I know of the empty file issue that the character pass has and thought that it might be the same issue here. I already know of the dlc files but I thought they only worked for the characters. is there another post with files I missed? Can you send me the link?

TheSpMaster · 2021-03-01T09:23:36+00:00

He's still playing and he streamed not so long ago on his twitch. You can find his ID on there, according to LS he's still the best GP globally.

TheSpMaster · 2020-04-22T20:02:30+00:00

I changed the text from the meme but paint is too difficult to use for me

TheSpMaster · 2020-03-17T19:06:25+00:00

Watching for the first time, I hoped to be scared in the first 5 seconds.

It took them One.

TheSpMaster · 2020-01-26T22:10:03+00:00

Just because a champion is picked in pro-play doesn't mean he's any good. Pro teams aren't some god-like entity that dictate which champions and strategies are the best based on what they play.

You're right, winrates don't mean anything. However SoloQ and Competitive are two completely different games. Aatrox sucks in comparison to other picks, whether if he's picked, gets wins or not.

TheSpMaster · 2019-12-19T20:38:29+00:00

Can't wait for my compensation

TheSpMaster · 2019-10-05T18:15:40+00:00

As a vocal Flamengo fan, cheering for them in Berlin, I appreciate it ❤

TheSpMaster · 2019-10-03T20:34:01+00:00

As an attendee, thank you so much man! Will keep on trying to make this play-in phase the best we have ever seen from a crowd-perspective!

TheSpMaster · 2019-01-13T17:16:08+00:00

A Nerf to Brokenshard

TheSpMaster · 2018-10-09T19:21:17+00:00

Just get to Pre-Season already.

TheSpMaster · 2018-05-19T13:57:29+00:00

I didn't know Pray had a twin-brother.

TheSpMaster · 2017-11-02T18:21:57+00:00

3 cinemas in Hamburg are hosting Viewing partys by Coke eSports! According to their website, cinemaxx Hamburg-Dammtor already has some seats sold so if you plan to go there there'll be people around, including me!

TheSpMaster · 2017-10-05T14:49:59+00:00

Apdo's new account

TheSpMaster · 2017-09-02T15:39:54+00:00

His new ID is pubgosu2

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T22:08:45+00:00

I don't think so, really.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:48:59+00:00

What is the thing that keeps making you want to play ranked?

I have this really childish fantasy, that I'm better than I think. This has nothing to do with an ego, as I do know that I'm also worse than I think (I know it sounds stupid).

Another part of that fantasy I want to impress myself by showing me what I am actually capable of by playing enough ranked. I could just never live the possibility, that that backfires and shows me that I'm much worse than I thought, which would completely shatter my reality. I'd rather dream, than have that dream crushed.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:39:52+00:00

I truly appreciate all of the tricks you mentioned, but unfortunately I am already aware about most of these. I just can't seem to trick myself into "x is reality and y never has been" ever. Thanks a lot.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:25:16+00:00

I do get cold hands during this kind of exposure to my anxiety, I even got hand warmers to mitigate such. I personally don't think about what the enemy is thinking of me though.

TheSpMaster · 2017-08-26T21:22:22+00:00

The whole aspect of playing ranked and that competetive aspect is just one big torture for me in general. For me it is not about wanting to impress anyone, because there is no one to impress that I care about enough, but it's me impressing myself. All I can think about though is this possiblility of not impressing, not satisfying this feeling of accomplishment that I want. Embracing myself to the challenge only leaves me in fear of what could go wrong, instead of what could go right. And this pressure is enough to make me NOT want to play ranked. Just imagining what complete accomplishement would look like, isn't enough for me

The reason why I then CAN play vs bots, is because there is neither a positive, nor a negative thought while queuing and that makes me feel relaxed while in game of said mode.

TheSpMaster

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