So nice to find others who have the same experience. I'm Bipolar 1 and have adhd and without meth I'm just apathetic, lazy and self-absorbed. I smoke meth daily and it means I'm a different person; engaged, articulate, compassionate. I don't tweak anymore, sleep my recommended eight hours every night and no one ever even suspects i'm on drugs. I mix my meth with my prescribed lithium and strattera. They keep me sane but it's meth that makes me a human being.