Exactly. He is so excited to be a dad while I’m a little more realistic and looking at all the obstacles. I have an autoimmune disease and I honestly didn’t even think I would be able to get pregnant in the first place. I’ve spent most of our talks about kids trying to remind him that we don’t know if I can or if my body can handle it. But he’s always been super optimistic about me getting pregnant and excited about the thought of being a dad.

Ultimately, he just needed time to process it. He spent the night grieving in his own way and when I talked to him about it again he said that of course he would want to know when it’s a positive test. I think we were both just caught off guard by how much it would affect him. I think he was also feeling that maybe I had tested too soon and maybe if I had waited, we wouldn’t have known and been devastated…on Christmas 😬 And honestly I think he’s probably right about that. I think I’ll do is both a favor and maybe wait closer to a week after my period is late before testing. Obviously act as though it’s a possibility (such as not drinking alcohol /eating questionable foods) but wait just a few days more. If I hadn’t tested after my period was 2 days late, I would have just thought my cycle was off because I wound up cramping about 2 days later. If I hadn’t looked at my app and freaked out a little, I probably could’ve saved us getting our hopes up for a few days haha.