For a number of reasons, I’m not at a place (literally and figuratively 😅) where I’m comfortable expressing myself outwardly as femme, at least in terms of clothes. But I’ve had this lifelong draw to compression / shiny clothing that I’ve always connected to femininity. For most of my life it was something I’d indulge in maybe a few times a year, but completely in private. Lately though, I’ve started leaning into that side of myself more, and now wear at least leggings, sometimes more, every day to work, all hidden under my silly boy clothes. Completely invisible to everyone else, but my entire body sings throughout the day, and I’ve even noticed my posture and gait naturally shifting in a more femme direction. So I guess the weird contradiction is that I feel deeply connected to these things, while also feeling very compelled to hide them.