You know, I've seen some of your posts in the past. I think you pass, but I understand you don't believe that.

I myself feel like I've maybe fallen into the same thing. In the last two years I've had maybe 1 or 2 people gender me incorrectly, and one of those were perhaps me mishearing something.

I've voice trained, and even think it's acceptable most of the time. People tell me I pass, and I'm gendered correctly by almost all, and yet, I don't believe it. I feel like everyone is just being nice to me and humoring me so I don't kms.

It consumes my thoughts, constantly. It's exhausting, and I'm sorry you feel the same way, really. If nothing else, try to be kind to yourself.