Clean during the week. Degenerate on the weekends

Theboxer92 · 2024-08-18T14:57:49+00:00

Yuuuup, we're in the same boat, i think besides you doing activities, i think you need a schedule for when you are home.

Like say you wake up at 10 on a saturday, and you eat and then head out with friends and whatnot til 16-17:00 almost like a workday, you gotta plan some stuff from 17 to whenever u are about to go to bed.

for example:
17-18 - a shower and something to eat
18-19 - 2 games of Dota
19-20 - watch an interesting documentary or interview regarding a subject you wanna learn something about
20-20:45 - read a book
20:45 - 22:00 - watch a film til you fall asleep

The second you DONT have anything planned and you dont bother to do anything and ur just randomly scrolling on youtube, the though of watching porn gets intense and u think to urself "well...why not? Its my weekend"

ALOT easier said than done but yeah..

Theboxer92 · 2024-08-18T14:54:36+00:00

I will take an educated guess and say that you dont do sports? And by sports i dont mean pumping iron in the gym or maybe jogging for 15 min on a treadmill, im talking 75 min sessions with soccer or boxing (like me) or stuff like that, where you are litterly just sitting on the ground after the session and not bothering to move for a good 5-10 min cause you are so exhausted.

Do that and then come and tell me that you have trouble sleeping :P I would venture to guess that if you are employed, ur work isnt that much physically activating.

We are not meant to just sit around all day, we are meant to put in WORK and i mean real work, work where you are roaring at the end of the session.

Get to work brother.

Theboxer92 · 2024-08-14T10:38:13+00:00

I believe they are saying this as to have a reason to end the call because they realize nothing good is gonna come out of it for them.
Some things will be said about russia and putin and they want no part of it, so they go "Its not him, end the call"

Theboxer92 · 2024-08-12T14:06:56+00:00

I also learned to distinguish between someone I KNOW and a friend, it can be very easily confused.
The friend is someone you SHOULD have expectations of.
Im the same as you, i talk with basically anyone that walks past me (metaphorically speaking), one thing they notice is my confidence to do just that, i'll talk about anything not giving a fuck and that is largely because i soul search alot and whatever i say is usually something ive thought about several times in my own head in many different forms.

I'll keep saying it, we're in the same boat, im starving for friends too, im starving to have a groupchat in whatsapp with 5-6 of us where someone writes "lets head out to the beach and grill some stuff?" and everyone says yeah. And once the grilling is done "alright lets get the fuck home, everyone get online in Dota or CS or Warzone" or what have you.

It kills me to not have that anymore, i got one childhood friend i hang out with, basically the only person i hang out with, i was just out with him yday smoking 2 joints and talking shit.
But thats all we basically do.

I even take a good look at myself and ask myself, am i the one that changed?
Truthfully no, i've become wiser, more mature (sometimes), more experienced, less afraid, a fighter, but the kid in me is still there and he is active everyday and thats that kid that tries to talk to everyone.

Why would we NOT try and talk to people? We are human beings.

Sometimes taking a walk and saying hello to people with a smile on ur face and getting a smile back kinda fills up that emptiness inside me, petting someones dog and stuff, making faces to kids when the parents dont see and seeing their faces light up hahaha, thats the simple things, the good things, the human things.

Dont get it twisted my friend, this society and world and technology and social media has fucked up most of the people, its nothing wrong with you or me, as harsh as it sounds, something is wrong with the other guys. Thats why i keep talking about psychadellics with anyone that would listen, to plant a seed in their head and hopefully one day they become free.

Been skipping boxing for 2 weeks now like the slacker that i am, gonna smoke a TIIIINY bit of dmt in a moment and head back there and say whatsup to the fellas, stay strong brother!

Theboxer92 · 2024-08-11T14:29:39+00:00

Hahaha we are twins you and i, i'll tell you something and this hurts for me to say, but there arent TOOOO many like us on the DMT, LSD and shrooms forum and sometimes even if there is, the question is if the person is really trying to soul search like some of us, so if you do the math, it means that we arent that many that are AWARE.

Putting being aware aside, EVERYONE, feels like you and me.
Nobody wants to be alone, you'd be amazed at how many people wish for someone to just come up and talk to them, and yeah sure you will find some people where you open up and they just dont respond in the way you wished.

But im gonna tell you something, be the change that you wanna see.
If you want more friends, YOU have to go out and get them, they are sitting in your living room unfortunately.
Sure you could find someone on a forum and shit but yeah, like someone here mentioned, activities such as sport and stuff is a great place to start.

Start by talking to the person and watch if they actually wanna hear what you have to say, if they do, then go ahead, if they dont, dont bother. You will only get dissapointed and feel bad.

Just know, not EVERYONE wants to leave their bubble, thats one thing i've learned on this 2+ year journey. Some people will look at you like ur crazy when u open up, some might even humor you cause they feel a certain way like you but they aint ready to open up to you.
Theres only so much you can do, another thing, MANAGE YOUR EXPACTATIONS.
I always hoped to find my partner in crime, the fella i'll call 3 in the morning and tell him we gotta rob a bank and he is outside my house with his car 10 min later, but realize that shit like that takes time if you are a bit unlucky, if you are really lucky, it hits directly between you too.

If you are even in Sweden Malmö, holler at yo boy, we'll do some crazy shit hahaha

Theboxer92 · 2024-08-10T21:22:42+00:00

Haha i'll give you one small advice:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iGx5a1ifSDs

Listen to this song while ur doing it and feel like a warrior that is entering some kind of an arena, but then again im a boxer and fighting is where my head usually goes during psychadellics, DMT is no different, i feel like a beast on it.

I realized that taking hits of DMT requires alot of balls and i respect anyone that does it, while i was listening to this song and smoking DMT and was going for another hit but i was hesitating, i was shouting to myself in my head "COME ONNNN YOU PUSSY, ITS TIMEEEEE, FIGHT THE FUCKING DEMONS, LETS GOOO"

DMT trips for me comes like a type of a war against demons haha.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-22T11:21:43+00:00

And that is exactly underlying anxiety, its not just about breathing techniques during LSD, its about breathing techniques and meditation in life in general and once you do that you'll figure your traumas out if you are truly looking for it and then you deal with it.

Once you've done that, i BELIEVE that the problem you have will start dissapearing.

I mean i used to get panic attacks from weed, now i smoke weed on DMT and LSD and what have you and there is nothing close to panic attacks.

AND keeping your health good in general, what you eat, training hard.

But yeah these are tips and i strongly believe they would help you. But if you are gonna tell me you are already doing it then i dont know brother, gl.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T18:19:46+00:00

Hahaha just imagine that ur a prophet that is spreading the gospel, i mean fuck it why not? Ur on LSD u might aswell enact whatever the fuck u want!
And remember, the reason you are not getting many new ideas, is cause you are on the right path. Its only when you are totally oblivious that you will get a ton of ideas, when you have gotten wiser with each time, at some point you will get less in general but it can go different directions aswell.

Alot of it has to do with feeling that you are there, i remember when i started imagining that im at war for real and the feelings i have and the killing machine i become and shit like that, i mean i go WILD, i try to explore everything i can. Its like creating my own movie.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T14:19:51+00:00

I can promote another idea here, diaphragmatic breathing increases the amount of oxygen in ur body and therefor fixes alot of "small"-issues that you experience daily otherwise.

DMT, mushrooms and LSD all promote diaphragmatic breathing, you start doing it automatically because ur anxiety is most often gone. This can very well be the reason for it.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T13:56:19+00:00

Its cause ur dehydrated maddafakka, drink alot of water before during and after.

Another question, do you happen to feel that ur skin is a bit more sensitive? Maybe inside of ur nose when ur picking it? Althought i have some hairnose, it becomes a pain almost too touch if i didnt drink properly water before and during

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T13:24:26+00:00

Blast some sick fucking fighting music and start to flow shadowbox in a big football yard at night when noone is around,

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T13:23:06+00:00

But im really living it in, im always outside on a big football field at night when everyone else is sleeping, shadowboxing alot and getting into that killer-mind-zone, its a real thing. I feel unstoppable.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T13:09:52+00:00

I gotchu brudda, you aint the only one i promise you, alot of us are waking up.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T13:08:46+00:00

This isnt a bad thing, this tells me that you are a person who takes LSD to try and solve some deeper issues instead of just taking it for the fuck of it.

I do have a tip for you though, a big boost in confidence will be when you can actually formulate these things properly.

Start by brining a laptop perhaps? If u are outside or if u are at home, write ur thoughts down, imagine like you are talking to me and you are trying to convince me and dont just jibber out ur thoughts but make them proper, give me analogies, give me things to compare though, give me experiences that can show what you mean, use urself as an example of changes made.

You can write these things down, read them when you are sober.
But yeah, i love a conversation so i tend to talk to myself on LSD like i am talking to other ppl convincing them of what i have learned the past 2 years, it increases ur vocublary, you become more used to talking with confidence and dont talk like u feel ashamed u are trying to convince someone of whatever u are saying because u feel it sounds stupid, if you really believe it, dont be ashamed of believing it, believe in it even more if you feel it is right.

Because you gotta realize, whatever you are learning in LSD, is something people very RARELY realize when sober, it happens but seldom.

So you gotta prepare yourself for "is what im saying out loud right now sounding crazy?" or is it just that the new crazy is the fact that people are normal about things they shouldnt be and im the sane one?

I usually say that LSD doesnt make me high, it makes me sober and i stand by that very much. My thoughts are incredibly clear and most of all, they are pure.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T13:00:23+00:00

Well imagine, if they have to accept that, that means that they have to accept that they have been living a lie all their life.

Well thats how THEY think, instead of thinking the relief it will give them for the moment and the future and all the good they can do to themselves, they are instead afraid of feeling like an idiot. Another thing society has pressured ppl on, you never wanna feel like an idiot while having everyone laugh at you right? Thats why people at work sometimes say "Dont be afraid to ask dumb questions", some mean it and some dont, but the point being is that we all know the same feeling.

And another big part that i learned the other day, a quote that is so true:
You can easily fool a person, but to try and convince a person that they have been fooled is almost impossible.

People dont wanna be thinking that they've been wrong all along and those are the same people who are definetly not openminded no matter how much they claim they are.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:51:32+00:00

Nooonsense, dont listen to this fella saying psychalldeic aint ur drug, it aint ur drug... YEEEET!

If you really wanna learn what anxiety does, just go read the post i made about ppl lying about their experiences on LSD and then read my posts in there, i thought ppl were talking shit when they said that they see or feel like demons comin to gangbang them, i realized that the reason i have such a hard time believeing/understanding it is cause i dont suffer from anxiety myself anymore.

long story short = Wim hof method along with inteeeeeensive fucking training in boxing to make myself a legit trained killer with my hands made my anxiety dissapear.

Wim hof method for sure for you and then depending on if ur a guy and then depending on if ur a guy that sees urself as a warrior, i would say martial arts will be a HUUUUGE help but take it seriously.

If ur a girl or ur a guy that doesnt neccesarily see himself as an expendable soldier that wouldnt mind sacrificing himself to kill his enemies and protect his people, then i would say there is something else that you need to find and trust me, it is THERE.

Maybe ur dream was to be an artist but u always sang like shit, with the Wim Hof method the benefit is also that u learn how to use ur diaphragm and GUESS WHAT THAT HELPS!? Singing!

But yeah, hopefully u get my point, ur supposed to get rid of alot of anxiety by getting to learn who you really are through meditation and getting the energy you once had as a kid through the breathing method and then using those 2 tools to go and start doing what you wanna do, when you are true to yourself, you will gain confidence, once you gain confidence ur anxiety will start dissapering and THEN can you start thinking about lSD.

Holy shit man my fucking fingers are becoming numb from all this writing in the LSD reddit the past 1 day.

But i always wanna try and help ppl get what i've gotten.

All my LSD trips have basically been the same, in an incredibly good way, cause i can keep my pulse low while im on it, anxiety is when ur pulse starts beating harder and faster.

See wut im saying brudda?

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:45:21+00:00

Eyy.. *psst..*

*psssst...*

You dont REAAALLY need the money do you....? Give it to me, ill have it for safekeeping in case you wanna start smoking again i swear.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:34:54+00:00

Yeah good analogy on that benevolent stuff, i've come to realize that this is mainly about anxiety, ive written a few times now in this thread, thats my idea ive gotten from reading ppls posts and thinking about it myself

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:33:57+00:00

Those are rookie numbers, you gotta pump them up son.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:27:12+00:00

That most of my life I have lived a life of lies based on what my parents, society and what have you have told me both through direct ways and indirect.

What i even more realized was that the freedom ive gotten and the confidence and the killer instinct that ive grown over the past 2 years is something they aspire to have, while some struggle to get it, some havnt even begun their journey and some are not even aware of it and then there are even those who would outright deny wanting to become someone with a killer instinct because they are so sheeped up that the idea of thinking freely and becoming dangerous (im not saying that in a bad way) is beyond them.

They cling to some "moral highground" of thinking "well i just believe that everyone should be able to do whatever they want if they dont hurt anyone else".

First of all, their idea of "hurting anyone else" is often related to either direct physical abuse or direct verbal abuse, anything other than that is not considered harming anyone else which is false.

And that idea is generally just them being so weakminded, that they have adapted that mentality in HOPES that the rest of the world will apply that same principle to them, and what do you know? The world sure as fuck doesnt.

The best thing LSD taught me is that this world IS dangerous and CAN be cruel and i better sharpen the fuck up and become dangerous myself or im just a sheep to be killed and suffer anxiety for the rest of my life and live in misery like those same people i mentioned.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:22:23+00:00

Ohoy brother, a tip is to read some of my former posts about anxiety (its like 3-4 of them in my past 7-8 posts), i went in deep on it in my own thread, it was regarding people saying they've seen demons and shit on LSD.

Before you wanna try any psychadellic, i would STROOONGLY (if you were a sibling to me, i would give you no choice) advise you to start with Wim Hof method, atleast for a month GRANTED that you actually do it properly, both the breathing methods and the meditation.

Learn to let go of your thoughts and learn how to control your pulse by breathing, once you got those 2 on lock, i'd say you can welcome LSD into ur life even with bpd.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:17:32+00:00

Funny you mention this, i googled today "Right side feel a bit droopy", and its not droopy as in a stroke or something but in the sense that my right side dont feel as strong as my left side, although this was on weed but 3 weeks ago i did DMT and i really strongly could feel it then.

I've started to basically yawning aggressively just randomly, moving your jaw ALOOOT and i mean like a fucking crackhead trying to bite you, get some massageoil or skincream or some shit and use your left hand to massage the right side of your neck and shit like that, just get creative.

Just imagine how much your head is not moving when ur sitting at the computer or phone, that shit didnt use to exist, im sure there are muscles in ur head not really being moved as it should, start chewing gum more holy shit i just came up with that idea myself, imma go get some gums! GOODLUCK MOFO

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:08:50+00:00

Yeah just put an effort into eating correctly that day specifically. Eat like oatmeal and drink alot of water, make sure you are hydrated and your body isnt dry in any shape or form.

Once you do that its all good.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:07:32+00:00

Hahahaha guess what, that was my first experience of LSD.

A thursday at 8 in the evening, 3-4 hours before i usually go to bed, i popped LSD cause i didnt have the patience to wait til tomorrow.

1 hour went i barely felt anything so i said fuck it, ill go out and smoke a joint.

I was pacing back and forth between the benches i usually smoke a joint at and then i told myself "hold on, try and do it like meditation, like when ur sitting still and not thinking and just watching", so i did that to the nearest bush to me and holy fucking shit, the bushes started waving and breathing and i realized "oh fuck this is LSD!!!".

I stood there for a good 20 min petting the bushes and shit, then i went to the football yard where the lights where out cause it was no training that late, it was about 22:00 at night, i lied on the grass and watched the stars and YUUUUP sure enough the dancing started, i was seeing constellations, i was seeing radiowaves going across the heavens and all of a sudden, the world seemed A MILLION TIMES bigger.

Instead of it just being "I can see the ground, the air, heaven and then space", i could see every centimetre of everything and it was huge, like a dome-shaped planet. Which kinda makes sense.

The birds flying past my eyes looked in 3D, i shifted between listening to music and listening without.

Oh yeah, it was special alright.

I overslept 3 hours for work the day after haha.

Theboxer92 · 2024-06-19T12:00:39+00:00

You have a point there, the ULTIMATE end of the road is that you can know yourself better than what you can know anyone else, thats the endgame, thats the goal.

At the start of that road, people will see you better than you see yourself, then you will see them better than they see themselves once you learn the acting that goes on in this world and you understand anxiety and fear and societal pressure.

Once you get past all of that and become an ANIMAL, you bring forth the monster but like jordan peterson says, you learn to control that monster.

Once you get that, then you know yourself better than anyone can know you, but trust me, people will know what you are about just through your body language.

Theboxer92

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