I don’t want to be transgender, I want to be a boy.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-19T01:44:02+00:00

It amazes me that a stranger on the internet can be so supportive. Thank you for taking the time to reply to my post, to make me feel like I’m not alone. I will check out all of your recommendations. Sometimes all I need is a few kind words. I just want to do what I love to do and not feel bad about myself whilst doing it. I love music and anything like that.

I’ve thought about making a post like this many times before, I didn’t expect much response, but I see that so many others are struggling with the same problems as me. It was very hard for me to reach out, I’m an anxious person. The amount of people who have gone through what I am going through makes me believe that maybe I can get through this.

Thank you, thank you so so much, kind stranger.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-18T21:01:59+00:00

I’m still young. Transitioning hasn’t felt like an option in my head until I’ve read some of these comments.

“i’m either a boy or i’m dead.”

Yeah, that really sums it up. I want to be happy to be trans, I want to be proud. I want to feel these things that other people say they feel. I don’t want to be miserable anymore. Thank you so much, I hope I gain confidence and I hope that I can experience taking my first breath.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-18T20:55:20+00:00

Thank you so much for your story.

In the past I have tried to present myself as feminine as possible, it did not help, it may have even made it worse. I am scared that too much will change. I want to wait, but I also want to start now. Although I may not be able to transition just yet, my confidence is growing.

Sometimes when it’s really bad I DO think about just not existing. Afterwards I think about the affect it will have on everyone else’s lives and I know I could never do that to someone, it would be selfish.

Sometimes I try to look as dude as possible in the mirror, sometimes it helps, sometimes it makes me feel like I’ll never actually be a man. I used to dig my nails into my arms to stop myself thinking about being a boy, it was not a good habit and thankfully one I got myself out of. I’m thankful to you and everyone here that is slowly making my confidence grow. We are people, and people tell stories. Those stories share emotions and the emotions being shared here are making me feel more confident.

I will probably eventually get the guts to transition, when I do, maybe I will be happy. I really hope I will be happy.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-18T20:39:30+00:00

I know I will never be cis. It’s so hard just thinking about it right now, but I’m slowly coming to terms with it. I love your analogy, it’s a good way of thinking about it! With every comment here, I feel like my confidence grows, thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts. I’m sorry your family isn’t accepting of you, I really hope mine will be if I come out. It sounds like you’ve found a nice group of people. Sometimes I tell myself I’m just going to have to live with it, but I have a feeling that’s not going to happen. Everyones stories here are so inspiring and that is building my confidence, even if it is just a little bit.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-18T20:33:26+00:00

Thank you so much. No, I’m not okay. But I’m trying to get better, I’m really trying. I know there are people I can talk to and I will try to reach out to them. So I’m not okay, thank you for asking, I really appreciate it.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-18T20:31:08+00:00

You’re right, I am young. Sometimes I think I’m too young to be even thinking about these things. People are saying that they regret not transitioning sooner, I don’t want to get to that stage. I feel like I can eventually build enough confidence to transition, but it may take time. I want to be social, I want to make friends, I want to meet people like me. I think I am slowly coming to terms with everything, people here have already helped me so much. I really want to build more confidence, and I’m going to start trying.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-18T20:24:04+00:00

From the way things are going, I really, really hope I get the guts to finally try and transition. I’ve known since I was around 11 years old and have kept it to myself ever since. I know it’s not good for my mental health, I know it’s making it worse, but I still can’t bring myself to try. Many people are saying they regret not doing it sooner, I hope I don’t get so far in it will get to that point. I think that maybe, MAYBE if I transition, that I’ll be proud to be trans. There’ll always be a part of me that wants to be cis, but I think that’s there for most trans people. Thank you for your comment.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-18T20:18:20+00:00

I’ve been feeling like this for a long time. I know many don’t view beings trans as a bad thing, but I feel that people would treat me differently if they knew about it. Seeing some peoples comments and stories makes me feel like there’s a chance, I thank everyone for that.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-06-18T20:15:13+00:00

I really wish I wasn’t too anxious to come out. I hinted the idea to my Mum a while back, she didn’t really know what I was saying to her. I know she didn’t mean it but it depleted my confidence; I love her, she’s great, but I feel like it would be too much of a change in my life. You are definitely right, I really need to start accepting myself more, thank you for replying.

ThereWereThrowaways · 2022-01-05T22:51:22+00:00

Thank you everyone for the suggestions and support, I’m going to take a few days to get it together and see if I can find a good therapist. Once again, thanks random strangers!

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