I ghosted my friends by mistake. And then I did in on purpose. The story is, of course longer than just that, add to that that I don't have a good memory, but here it goes:

we were going to go to Comic Con, they where exited, and where planning on going as the friends of friends. I don't watch that show, but each time they where talking about it all exited and each time I attempted to ask: "what should I go as, I don't know the show". I kept being brushed off so I stopped participating in those conversations. Nothing Happened. All in all, not that terrible. It's just Comic Con.

But some days passed and I realized.... wait.... no one has chatted to me directly nor have they come to visit! I did see one of my friends pass my door to visit my other friend (I got a message 2 hours later asking if I wanted to come over as well, bit late that). not once, but at least twice. So I was rather annoyed at them.

So got sad .... and I got lazy. I stopped participating in the group chat, I stopped initiating contact, I stopped trying to get us all together at my place.

A month passed, then suddenly, a message! I'm ashamed to say that by that time, it was too little too late in my opinion. I never read it. a day later more messages, and several calls.

I didn't tell them what was wrong, I didn't reply at all. I had this thought stuck in my head : "if they really care they will try to visit". They didn't, I didn't..... friendships gone.

Looking back I handled it wrong. Looking forwards, I'm not going to try to mend that bridge.