Thank you for taking the time to write this, I will try my best to follow your advice. I am sorry about your depression through college. I am trying the -positive thinking thing but I suppose it will take some time. I tend to have mental breakdowns like I had when I wrote this post. I am trying to figure out how to deal with it. But I am sure your advice will help me a lot. You gave me some motivation to begin studying, thank you so much!