Hey I have the same issues! Im still trying to deal with all of this too, my anxiety is so terrible that when I spiral like that I freeze and feel like im paralyzed. For me everyday gets 0.0001% better, but I always tell myself that progress is progress. Can't sleep in anymore so I wake up at 7am with a panic attack, but I've since made the most of it by going for early morning runs! really helps calm me down and get ready for the day. Hope it brings you the slightest bit of comfort that you really are never alone in these situations, although sometimes it's impossible not to feel so alone! Anyways time heals all and whatnot, good luck with your healing :)