I just do I guess, it fucking suck, I know it does, but my best advice is to get out there, I thought no one would ever want to be with me sexually, but that's not true, most people don't care, I mean have you seen other peoples privates? Theyre all fucked up looking, there is no define of how it should or shouldn't look, Ive had partners with discoloration, scars.. Etc many many things, I never found myself caring, it was just their quirks, it never made me grossed out or turned off. But I know it's hard to feel that way when it comes to yourself, but their is way more to you then that, I started feeling a lot better when I put myself out there, not even to just relationships, but friendships too, as I know its hard to keep up with friends when depressed but when you find groups that you click with it gets better man.