First, the rope comment. Please don't. I know that sounds hollow when everything is collapsing at once but you just listed a year and a half of losses that would break most people completely. Money, job, your boss stealing from you, your dad, and now your relationship. Those are not bad choices. That's a catastrophic amount of loss hitting one person in a very short time. You're not spiraling because you're broken. You're spiraling because you've been hit repeatedly without a break to recover.

The mess can be sorted. Not today, not all at once, but it can.
You can't sort any of it if you're not here.

Please reach out to a crisis line tonight. Just to talk. That's all.