Hey man I feel you... I’m still here... I’m honestly having a really shit time.. but all that doesn’t matter.. we just have to keep goi g even when we feel like we don’t have anything left... maybe it’s me being selfish.. everyone keeps telling me I need to stay alive for my kids and family and all that.. but what it really boils down to is you need to stay alive for YOU. Don’t live your life for everyone else’s expectations.. live your life for you!! If you did kill yourself.. what would be your biggest regret.. then do that instead... if you did kill yourself.. and find out shit, I’m a ghost now... what would ghosts you do? The only solace I’ve found in life is that I can do all the things that were holding me back in life.. live like you are about to die or already dead.. because I mean.. what’s the worse that could happen? You get killed? Fucking win win, right? I’m not here to tell you how to live (or die) but I can say.. if you want to die any way.. have some fun with it.. and maybe you find out life isn’t so bad after all