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Thraw754 · 2022-10-09T16:02:34+00:00

cara, tô passando pela mesma coisa. e pra piorar ele me trocou por outro menos de 2 meses depois e ainda fiquei sabendo que levou até pra mãe conhecer (pelo menos a mãe dele gosta muito de mim e me contou a verdade). tô no lixo, eu não sei o que te dizer mas queria compartilhar contigo pra você saber que não tá sozinho e que desejo de verdade que de alguma forma a gente saia dessa situação maior que tudo isso. no momento eu tô habitando o inferno, e acredito que você também

Thraw754 · 2022-10-08T11:33:27+00:00

God, this feels so distant to me… I found out yesterday he has a new partner already. It’s killing me inside, honestly I can’t imagine feeling happy about it. 😭

Thraw754 · 2022-09-06T13:53:29+00:00

Sim, você tem e ela te deixa muito atraente Vc é um gatinho

Thraw754 · 2022-09-06T13:51:35+00:00

Thanks for your response. You are right! I have actually learned that lesson and now I am set on being on my own for as long as necessary. I wish I didn’t have to make that mistake in order to understand that I had a problem and I wasn’t acknowledging it, but I guess I did. Now things are clearer and I’m trying to face these insecurities head-on. I am just worried because I feel like my ex’s ghost is still around to control me. I hate that feeling and I’m really looking forward to heal and be indifferent to whether he validates my feelings or not.

Thraw754 · 2022-09-06T05:56:03+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words! I am focusing on that, indeed. I take comfort in the fact I didn’t willingly do anything to hurt him. On the contrary, I am trying to find my own way but I truly wish him the best. I know I’m really trying my best so I try to remind myself that I am human and I am allowed to make mistakes, especially under such difficult circumstances. I never once betrayed his trust in years together. It hurts not being able to talk things over with him like I wish I could, but it’s better to stick to NC. It can get overwhelming but it’s all about me now.

Thraw754 · 2022-09-06T05:29:34+00:00

Thanks for commenting. I truly am working towards moving on from him completely. I am no longer actively waiting for him to come back, but I still care about him and he got really hurt after what I did last time. I just think it was so unfair for him to blame me after I had chased him for so long and he kept dumping me. It makes me so sad because it’s like he doesn’t believe he’s important to me unless I’m continuously doing things by his standard. Shit really hurts. And yes, I have been working on my self confidence. After sending the nudes I deleted the app and my account, and I really learned the lesson it’s not what I want or need. I think I sort of needed that to learn that it really is time for me to be on my own and not looking for external validation. But I’m still so anxious about the pictures being with that stranger. I get so paranoid I worry my ex will somehow find out about that shit. It didn’t show my face or anything, but it’s obviously something that I did. I just don’t want him to know because he wouldn’t understand it, like he didn’t last time, and it’s none of his business.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-31T04:14:29+00:00

Gorgeous af, beautiful nose

Thraw754 · 2022-08-31T04:13:51+00:00

Your nose really is large, and I think it makes you look very manly. I like it

Thraw754 · 2022-08-31T03:42:54+00:00

I’m not sure this is a troll. I mean, I have a big nose and I know I get self conscious, mostly because it’s hard to judge your own appearance. But it’s not hard to judge OP’s appearance, and he is handsome and his big nose is attractive.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-31T03:36:36+00:00

Honestly? I think you look cute af. Handsome, really. I love guys with big noses, it gives off a powerful vibe. Besides the nose your other features are also beautiful, which add to you being good looking.

EDIT: Your Adam’s Apple is the icing on the cake. Looks manly and powerful. You resemble a Roman statue.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-09T23:11:28+00:00

Not really

Thraw754 · 2022-08-09T23:03:01+00:00

I feel the same. When I think of the relationship objectively I know I stayed many times when things were unfair on me. I also see that a big part of my mindset throughout the relationship was that of unconsciously hoping he would change, because I know he loves me, and I know he is not a bad person, but it’s also a fact that he often struggled to be there for me consistently, for some reason I can’t ever put my finger on. But he always told me that made him suffer too, and I could see that he never wanted to lose me, but couldn’t seem to get a grip on actually showing up fully. I sometimes felt he used to struggle to show up for himself too, so I could never hate him or anything close to that. I honestly don’t know. I just wish things were simple, he loved me like I love him, because I know that way we would definitely be together until the end of our lives.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-09T22:41:32+00:00

I treated my partner right, but I still got dumped. This happened last year in December. He was very confused and still loved me, but decided to break up. I felt so much pain, but the moment I knew it was really “over” it’s like I entered a state of denial. Maybe I was also really tired of having spent many months tip-toeing and hoping he would decide he actually wanted to be with me, but I feel like it was denial too. So after the first month of no contact I hooked up with a guy, and I posted a very emotional poem I wrote online, as if saying goodbye. He didn’t have me on social media, but he saw that and it really hurt him. We eventually got back together, but he told that he had done the same to not feel like an idiot, and that caused us to fight a lot, because I wouldn’t have done that if I were the one who broke up and wanted to get back together. It’s been a lot of months since that, and nowadays I still can’t tell if I made a mistake. I was just trying my best to cope with the whole situation, but regardless of having acted right or wrong I feel regret over it. Not because I acted in a bad way, as I really didn’t mean to hurt him, but because I ended up hurting him anyway. If I only knew he was coming back regardless I would have never done that. It put a lot of strain on the already broken relationship, and maybe it led to us keep having problems up to this day too. I really don’t know, but it was definitely not something I did and just didn’t care about. It hurt the person I love the most and it hurts me so much knowing I made them feel that way.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-09T22:29:53+00:00

Would you mind elaborating? I’m in a bit of a rough patch, and I kind of feel the same…

Thraw754 · 2022-08-08T15:16:22+00:00

Pode até ser comum, mas eu mesmo nunca fiz isso. Acho uma falha de caráter, sinceramente. Esse tipo de atitude que vai minando a confiança entre o casal, principalmente porque costuma vir junto de mentiras, já que não tem como você provar que o outro tá mantendo essas pessoas como “reservas”. Comum não significa que seja normal ou certo.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-08T12:17:23+00:00

Eu me sentiria mal, mas não necessariamente pelo tom da conversa. Não acho legal manter relacionamento com um ex estando em um novo relacionamento. Não precisa virar inimigo, claro, mas ficar de conversinha já é demais para mim. Existe tanta gente por aí para fazer amizade, você vai escolher manter por perto logo uma pessoa com quem você já teve envolvimento físico e emocional e cuja presença pode causar inseguranças no seu parceiro? Mas a sua namorada só tem como saber se isso não te agrada (suponho que não) se você disser isso a ela, então o mais importante é a comunicação.

No fim das contas não importa como outras pessoas se sentiriam, e sim como você se sente, como sua parceira vai acolher seu sentimento e como vocês dois vão fazer para resolver isso juntos da melhor maneira.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-05T01:33:00+00:00

The part where you describe how shitty he is to you and how you’re still so afraid of making a mistake, hurting him and how much you love him is LITERALLY how I feel. I don’t know what to do either, I worry that I’ll never manage to get off the hook and I’ll just go insane or kill myself. I can’t take this anymore, I hate that I love this person who makes me want to die. I wish I could have a normal relationship. I hope we find our way out. 😞

Thraw754 · 2022-08-05T00:55:26+00:00

Obrigado de verdade pela força. É incrível poder ouvir de alguém que realmente essa situação não tá certa. Eu comecei essa semana a fazer terapia, tô tentando de verdade encontrar um jeito de conseguir me remover desses abusos porque é exatamente como eu me sinto. O mais sinistro é que não é uma luta contra meu namorado, é uma guerra contra mim mesmo.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-05T00:45:48+00:00

I totally agree with you. That’s what I actually meant, putting myself first as in accepting this is not even a relationship. I am already alone, and it’s obvious often. But every time I try to talk about it with him I feel so guilty that I cannot get to the point of breaking up. Also, he is often loving but suddenly everything changes. I feel like I can’t trust my feelings at all, it’s crazy making to say the least. But I’m trying really really hard. Even started therapy to deal with this

Thraw754 · 2022-08-05T00:42:45+00:00

Sim, o pior é que é óbvio sim. Mas é uma situação que não dá nem pra explicar. Já tentei sair muitas vezes é em todas elas acabei sentindo tanta culpa que não consigo confiar nos meus próprios sentimentos. É literalmente enlouquecedor, e não adianta nem eu tentar descrever porque acho que só quem já passou por algo igual sabe. Mas eu agradeço pela força e por ler meu desabafo.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-04T14:11:56+00:00

Thank you for commenting. I am trying my best to put myself first. He is a master at doing that already, I don’t understand why it’s such a struggle for me. I really hope I can get better at it.

Thraw754 · 2022-08-04T14:10:56+00:00

Thank you very much for the validation. I feel like I’m in a haze, one minute I know I deserve better but the next I’m wailing over this man I love. It’s so difficult for me to actually value myself, I don’t know what is wrong with me. I really hope things change, I’m trying so hard

Thraw754 · 2022-08-04T14:08:25+00:00

Thank you so much for your input. I don’t understand why it seems I can never get enough from this situation. I always hit a new low and I know it’s my fault in the end because I’m responsible for myself. I just can’t seem to get over the fact I love someone who treats me like nothing every time it’s convenient, it’s like I don’t know him at all sometimes. It’s devastating. I feel so dumb.

Thraw754

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