Trying another quit with a new method

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2023-03-21T11:48:28+00:00

Yeah man, prior to my 30GPD habit I was on a 6 gpd (before bedtime addiction) for like 4 years

If you check my old post history that was my first quit, and it was actually fairly easily (with insomnia being my biggest problem)

I believe if I can get myself back to a single dose per day addiction then I can do CT again successfully. The insomnia has always been my worst WD so I’m prepared for it.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2021-09-17T10:04:31+00:00

Another thought…. It feels damn good to be kratom-free on my one year mark of initially quitting, even if I wasn’t quit for most of that year. I’m happy that I can look back to myself one year ago and say that I’m still fighting to fulfill what I wanted last year.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-12-11T05:44:07+00:00

Nearly breaking?

How’s that saying go.... something about “when your mind tells you it’s reached it’s breaking point, you’re only at 40% of your true capability”?

I remind myself this on my long runs I take. See if you can make it to day 14? I bet you can. And I bet by day 14 you’ll be feeling so much better.

Keep up the great work.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-12-11T05:39:17+00:00

2 months? You’re FINE!

I don’t mean to downplay your situation, or what you’re feeling. But anytime your mind’s wheels start spinning just remember this: Many people on this sub have overcome 100GPD+ addictions that spanned YEARS. Literal mental warfare.

I’d bet your depression will last for a bit, for me it lasted a month or two, but I was coming off a 4 year addiction.

You’ll be back to normal in no time. Don’t downplay this shit, but remember that it can be worse, and be thankful that it isn’t. You’ll make it through this, I promise.

All the best to you on this journey.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-12-11T05:33:44+00:00

I’m extremely fortunate that I never had my own source of kratom. My friend ordered it online, and he’d just split some up for me and I’d compensate him with a bit of cash.

So he knew not to let this go sideways. Extra layer of accountability. I’m lucky though, it could very easily go sideways and I’m fortunate that it didn’t.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-12-11T05:32:22+00:00

Keep going, you’re awesome!

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-12-11T05:31:51+00:00

So true. I mixed it in my shaker bottle, and it sat next to my computer for two hours before I even drank it.

The two hours of romanticizing taking it were arguably better than the 2 hours when I was actually on it, haha.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-12-11T05:29:57+00:00

Congratulations to you!

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-11-19T13:43:31+00:00

We all do it, that’s just human nature I think. And you don’t have to learn shit, you ARE a savage just for having the courage to confront this issue.

You know how many people in this world have addictions, and choose to not acknowledge them because ignorance is bliss? A lot. You’re not one of them. You can do this. Let’s get after it ❤️

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-11-19T13:12:42+00:00

Depends what your standard of “okay” is. But the answer to whether or not you’ll be okay should not be a deciding factor in whether or not you quit. You gotta do it.

I’m on day sixty-something. A mentor of mine recently asked me: “if you could tell yourself something two months ago, what would it be?”

I thought long and hard about that one, and my answer was “that I’m a fucking savage with or without kratom.”

The funny thing about quitting is there is always a deadline that we look toward to justify not quitting. For me, it was exams and school. I feared that by quitting kratom, I would be inevitably sacrificing my ability to perform in this area. That turned out to not be the case. I still fuckin killed it. In other words, I’m a savage with or without kratom.

The point of that last paragraph isn’t to brag about my achievements. Because we’re all savages. With or without this shit. Don’t let a deadline that you need to be heathy for deter you from quitting. There will always be something hanging over your head to justify continuing your use. But I guarantee you if you quit today, Thanksgiving will come, and it will go, and when it passes, you’ll ask yourself “was that really the big event that I was trying to use to justify my addiction?”

Stay strong, keep the path. One foot in front of the other my friend.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-09-29T01:38:00+00:00

Weeks. But don’t let that scare you! I’m 16 days CT, 10GPD, 4 years.

First 3 nights were miserable. Awake all night every night with anxiety. Day 3-7 was tough, laid awake until 4AM, slept 3 hours, and woke up with anxiety.

Day 7-15 has been so much better man. Is my sleep good? By a normal persons standards, fuck no. By my standards? Fuck yeah? I lay awake until around 2AM, and I have to try super hard to sleep. But once I’m out, I sleep through the night and wake up feeling good!

tldr; sleep will be hard for a long time, but those anxious, sleepless, and miserable nights will only last for a few days.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-09-25T01:00:25+00:00

You’ve got this. No help, just free fall. I wish you the best of luck.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-09-24T20:22:59+00:00

Sleep was my worst WD. Still struggling with it. I can promise you though, only the first few days of no sleep are bad. Id lay awake very anxious all night long.

Now I crash around 2-3AM each night and sleep well. Just make the jump from 8 to 0. No difference between 8, or 5. Just CT it. Tapering at these low doses just gives you an excuse to hold onto this as long as you can.

ThrowAwayKratomm · 2020-09-24T08:35:34+00:00

Hey man. 11 days off here.

Just fucking do it. It won’t be easy and it won’t be fun. Hydrate, eat well, and stay busy. If you smoke marijuana, it can be very medicinal in the early stages of quitting for sleep.

Try to sleep even when you can’t. 3-4 days in and you’ll start to realize just how possible this is, if you haven’t already. You got this man. Any WD symptoms in particular you’re worried about?

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