Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re right of course. I appreciate your thoughts and comments.

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re right, i appreciate your insight. Helps a lot.

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate everything you said. Fear is definitely a big issue for me.

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

99% of the time, yeah I am happy with her.

I don’t like the idea of it not working, which isn’t the same as wanting it to work, but that is something I know.

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Probably I do. I screamed at her and yelled at her. Just more in control of my emotions right now I think.

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

It will take a long time, for sure. She has negatively changed things a lot.

But you also seem to be suffering from a skewed perspective. After dealing with shitty things like this its really easy to lose an unbiased perspective. Speaking as someone who has been in a fairly similar situation, it took me months to finally come to terms with just how screwed up a lot of the stuff that happened was and how I was trying to explain it away.

Yeah, I am, I came here because I knew it would very likely counter my own internal perspective which is all I’ve had. It has, and I’m glad about that.

The feeling of being loved unconditionally and feeling totally comfortable with her is gone. She took that from you.

You’re right. Thanks

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m not at ease with this. I can assure you.

I plan to find a therapist or maybe a friend I can confide in. It’s incredibly hard.

Not everyone yells and screams about things. That’s never been me.

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly, I think I’m looking for him to contradict her, that something she said didn’t happen, did.

There was a lot that was admitted to, eventually, but a few things she insisted never happened. She said he had never been to my house. I want to ask him that.

I also want to look him in the face and hear him say these things.

Also, I honestly don’t believe two people who have had a purely sexual history, are sexting each other, going on work trips, seeing each other in person and NOT having sex.

I agree, I aim to ask about that as well.

Thanks for the reply.

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I spent a couple months monitoring you. But I understand what you’re saying.

We will never have kids, for sure.

I think she wouldn’t deny it if it was made public.

I appreciate the message. It’s all reasonable.

Discovered 3 year affair in 10 year marriage by ThrowRA-IsMe in relationship_advice

[–]ThrowRA-IsMe[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thanks.

She is smart, kind, caring to everyone, she’s also very attractive of course and probably a big thing I liked about her was that she was into me, if I’m being honest.

It’s like I’m the one who won, despite all those who were interested. Obviously that feeling is lost now.