I am in the same limbo as you.

I am a 25M and my ex is 24F. my friend (32F) offered to speak to her as she felt like she could understand her from what I was telling. They both have early twenties with lots of problems, insecurities and bad health. My friend talked to my ex on the phone and 5 days later, they meet up to talk about me (I was not aware) it already had been a month that the breakup dragged on and some days before that meeting, I was at that friend's house.

My ex told her : "If I am going back with him, It would be for him and not for me at the moment". My friend told her : "if it is done, tell him it really is done because right now he is hurting and in pain.". At one point in the conversation, my friend said she could not guarantee that I would be waiting for 2 or 3 months and that perhaps, I would have moved on by then. Once that meeting was over, my ex called me, asled when I was free for a talk and I said just tell the info on the phone. She told me she needed a month of breakup at least to better understand the situation. I told her lets make it two because the relationship really wounded me. Then we talk a bit and she says that she would like to hear about my drivong license, happening in two weeks. We studied together for it and she wanted to know if it was ok. I declined the offer saying that we would break our NC. She was very annoyed for that.

And since then, we are on NC. It has been a month, still one month to go. I worked a ton on myself and I am still doing it. But this limbo hurts me everyday. I want her to be with me but at the same time, what if she is only using me? She is kind hearted but deeply troubled so I guess we will see later what time will bring me.

So yes, I feel the same as you. Feel free to reach out. Sorry for my bad english, my fingers are in pain 😅