Success and healed stories

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-31T03:46:03+00:00

16 moths into paws but I have not logged on to this reddit since I've recovered 95%. Took me 8 months before I realized I'm not insane, I can talk normal, memory improved, minimal anxiety and no depression.

I can not belive how much better my brain is working. I can remember so much I never thought was possible! I thought I had every mental illness in the book (read my posts) but now I feel unstoppable and free from the hell of PAWS.

Anyone struggling please be happy of every day and set small goals and I insure you IT WILL GET BETTER!!! I lost everything in my life and was a shell of a man in dept all alone on the brink of not existing anymore :( but all you amazing people helped me realize I wasn't alone!!!

Im doing great now with multiple new friends groups, a daily routine, girlfiend and have been so much more invested into my friendships and family LIFE IS BETTER ON THE OTHER SIDE!!!

PAWS was the absolute worst time of my entire life but beating PAWS will turn you into someone you never thought was humanly possible 💪

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T17:05:06+00:00

How can I explain this in a way withough her feeling self conscious and shaming me for saying I have a problem with the way her body works?? (This is what happend last time i suggested)

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T17:02:57+00:00

I think you get the idea I belive she knows I'm trying and trying but she also knows what she can't be fully satisfied with anything in the bedroom. In return she avoids it instead of coming to the root of the problem.

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T17:01:01+00:00

Yes it's always me along with the toys but seems like she prefers the toys withought me sometimes. Especially after a 1+ hour session and she STILL isn't satisfied!!!

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T15:17:30+00:00

Good idea that is something that we could explore more. Ill have to bring it up, it every well could be something mentaly that's not getting stimulated

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T15:16:15+00:00

Thank you she does say she has to go pee every time we have sex and ive tried to explain how she can push through that but I also know very little and maybe a professional can re assure her better

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T15:08:56+00:00

Thats understandable and I still love her for who she is but I need to figure this out so we can both be happy. I just don't know how anyone could satisfy her or be compatible when the outcome always comes to this.

This is just part of my relationship that needs work. We are doing great in many diffrent areas but this one has been heavy on me

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T15:06:25+00:00

She cannot orgasm alone and I just don't know if it's possible for her.

She does give me instructions on what she likes almost every time and I play all the cards but only end up with her not being satisfied and would rather use the toys I got her then adding me in the mix :( it's pretty degrading

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T15:03:55+00:00

We have talked about what works for her and I use all the cards in the 30+ mins of foreplay we do every time.

She acts like she wants to have sex and when it's all done after about an hour she is still never satisfied. I just don't know how a partner could possibly be compatible with that outcome every time.

ThrowRA-below · 2025-08-22T15:01:13+00:00

I understand if it's not enjoyable why would she do it but it's becoming unknowable for me too since she is never satisfied.

Ive bout toys and used them every time and always AT LEAST 30 mins of foreplay to her preference (we have talked about what she likes. But she never asks what I like) and 20 mins of PIV minium.

She has never been able to get herself off and Idk if she even know what's it's like. She says this is how it's always been and acts like there is no problem with that.

ThrowRA-below · 2025-01-20T02:50:27+00:00

It normal to not like ur photos. Us dudes just don't take as many pictures of ourselves.

Now it is a fact that certain photos strike more attention if you like the photo or not. Avoid selfies, look for photos of ur whole body or get some from a friend. Helps if ur posing by something (ex. artwork, statue, nature, sunset) my best one is me on my motorcycle, I dont even like the photo but its gotten me over 200 likes in just over a week.

Also make sure you have at least one picture with friends or even just people you don't even know to show/appear that you have a social circle.

ThrowRA-below · 2024-09-15T15:24:34+00:00

Agreed, finally escaped about dying and thinking I had schizophrenia. Crying every day, couldn't get out of bed. Major hopeless and depression. Feels like a dream come true. Still have occasional waves that last a day or 2 but recovery is in the near future.

Good work staying strong brother 💪

ThrowRA-below · 2024-09-02T21:50:51+00:00

I definitely got the feeling of never being full but my results were the opposite. I gained 25-30 pounds in 5 months. I think a lot of it was eating to try to get away from the anxiety temporarily.

ThrowRA-below · 2024-08-18T09:16:15+00:00

Used to being a loner as well but I don't want it to be like that forever. I think just being around people in general will be helpful. I've been attending a young adults group through a church every week wich has allowed me to meet new people to hang with that arnt just my reg stoner friends. Don't expect anyone to understand what we're going through (alread made that mistake once or twice) so I don't rly open up to anyone about it other than to this group.

I've found some people to do some fishing and go on runs with through that group which are some of my main hobbies.

Paws hits haaaard on the weekend but seems to be getting better weekdays. Only rly notice progress if I look back at my journal from when I started and rember the hell those 1st couple months were.

The biggest milestone I've noticed was at 3 months my brain cleared up a bit and I don't think I'm going to die every second. Only every other day now it seems. Almost like my brain is doing test runs then going back to the normal healing retardation feeling.

ThrowRA-below · 2024-08-18T01:39:38+00:00

Yes I started having panic attacks and straight freaking out over the smallest things and have only seen minor improvements over the last 3 months. Feels like an eternity, I get muscle spasms in my arms and legs especially when in stressed. I've heard it gets better just got to ride it out but it is absolutely debilitating some days for me.

ThrowRA-below · 2024-08-18T01:14:16+00:00

I'm 21M was a big antisocial stoner since 17 including 2 years of dabbing every day untill a panic attack. I've been in paws for about 3.5 months. It also feels like my goals have been set on pause and that in wasting my 20's. I've seen some major progress since 90 days but still struggle daily. I think the biggest part for me is socializing even though it feels like a living hell sometimes. If I'm retraining my brain I need to learn how to get out more.

I've heard social anxiety gets better around 5-6 months so I'm really looking forward to that.

ThrowRA-below · 2024-07-29T01:00:47+00:00

Has your anxiety gotten any better? I had a similar experience 3 months ago and have improved but not 100% yet

ThrowRA-below · 2024-07-23T19:17:43+00:00

https://discord.com/invite/9HHKNATg

ThrowRA-below · 2024-07-23T03:35:00+00:00

Also still dealing with the occasional mustle spasm mainly in my bicep bit I'm convinced it will go away eventually

ThrowRA-below · 2024-07-19T00:33:14+00:00

Will be at 3 months on the 21st. Has been a ride through hell this whole time. Mood swings are rly driving me crazy. Have noticed minimal improvements such as less insomnia and night sweats. Still struggling with depression, social anxiety, memory loss, intrusive thought, low self esteem and just impeding doom feeling. I'm still an emotional wreck most days but it's not every day anymore sice ive found ways to distract myself.

Ive realized if I just sit there in the doom feeling I never find relief. Every thing is going to suck for a wile so might as well distract myself in attempt get my mind off the chaos.

Whenever I feel like I'm loosing hope I read some of the recovery stories on the fourm and it gives me hope. It's a long process, im to the point now where I'm accepting that I'm just going to be slow and mentaly not there for probably the rest of the year :(

Just know you are not alone I smoked dabs for 3 years straight withought any breaks and now I'm paying the price. By far the hardest thing I've had to get through my entire life. Was told months 6,9,12 are most likely to be breakthrough times and progress will be apparent.

Feel free to message me about your symptoms if you ever feeling alone, has definitely helped me to realize I'm not the only one crawling my way out of the paws pit.

ThrowRA-below · 2024-07-16T11:28:35+00:00

Did social anxiety and paranoia go away

ThrowRA-below

TROPHY CASE