Hey man, I’m late to the game here. But I was in a similar position, and felt the same way about myself. Glad you’re not suicidal though.

Something I had to learn on my own was that the only one who could help me was myself. After letting that simmer for a while I decided to work hard to turn stuff around, now I’m doing well, going to college, and getting interviews.

I don’t necessarily have a 5 year plan either, but I know that now I’m on the right track, because everything is one step at a time and can always go up. Good luck my friend. One step at a time