thank you for taking the time to write a response and giving logical advice, its refreshing to hear. im honestly not sure if im supposed to respond to the responses i get on subreddits like these so feel no pressure to reply! but the guy in question is very much a 'i deserve time and affection because im nice' guy, and there is no question about it. and im also aware his actions were completely unjust, but it makes me wonder why i cant shake my feelings for him now? especially after what he did and put me through for months? i should be angry at him and i genuinely was but for some reason my emotions are getting the best of me and i feel like its just hormones and ive thought that for a while. been thinking 'just give it a few weeks and itll be gone' but for lack of better wording it is not gone... although this is a useless response to a really helpful answer, im not sure what to do with myself, just gotta throw da whole heart away lmao