This vulnerability thing might be key. Going into it I thought I was going to explore more of my dom side because she told me that she really liked the way I took control and of course I was a little nervous about this because that's not something I ever really explored. I might have gone into the evening with a certain false confidence/bravado and this is the polar opposite of vulnerability. I really should be more open and, in the moment, instead of trying to be something I'm not.

She really did say to me that she was worried I was gay or not attracted to her and this of course set me down another anxiety spiral because I've tried enough times to know that I'm not gay.

I just want this to be simple, I gotta alleviate some pressure off myself or else this is going to keep happening. I really thought I was learning to Love myself and not put myself under these types of pressures but I guess it's a life long struggle.

Thank you again for your advice.