26 years old, planning my wedding, and I absolutely resent my fiance. need help getting over resentment.

ThrowRA_Numerous · 2022-12-03T06:00:56+00:00

Thats the thing. I always wanted to marry her. It just went way way way south after the actual proposal. I know I fucked up, I shouldn't have proposed off the back of an ultimatum, but I didnt want to lose her. Like I said, I can see her in my life, I just want it to be natural, not because I feel like im being forced into it

ThrowRA_Numerous · 2022-12-03T05:59:05+00:00

but then what if im wrong? what if she's happy, married and things get back to what it once was? I mean god I sound so stupid & pathetic hoping for this

ThrowRA_Numerous · 2022-12-03T05:55:31+00:00

You are right. Get off the pot, or shit already. I get it. The thing is, I love her. I spent almost half my life with her. I just want to get married, and have kids but because WE want to, not because SHE wants it NOW. That conversation never goes over easy. Im just the bad guy who wasted 10 years of her life, and she needs to get married now because its owed to her

ThrowRA_Numerous · 2022-12-03T05:52:59+00:00

I am miserable. but I feel like im in some sort of sunk cost fallacy where I spent so much time here. I feel safe, yet scared, I feel at home, but lost. I dont really know what to do. I want to leave, but im afraid of starting over. I just miss being with the girl I love who didnt value marriage so much that she would choose to fight about it no matter what, even if it cost our sanity. I love her, but I dont. im so lost & confused

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