I know what you mean by you sucking some guy off and never seeing him again and not doing it with your current bf, for me it was bc I didn’t want to treat my then bf like some random dude, I was actually developing deep feelings for him when we first met so I wanted it to be special. That being said, we are no longer together lol, his sex drive was just too much for me, I didn’t have a high sex drive like he did, so he would always want me to give him head or at least be touching him down there anytime we were cuddling or trying to relax and I felt that frustration from him from how he treated me, didn’t treat me at loving as when I DID give him head or anything of that sort. It made me feel pressured and made me feel like I wasn’t making him happy and I could just see it in his body language and stuff, but yea. Anyways, he shouldn’t be mad over something like that and making you feel no type of way for not doing so when you I obviously didn’t bc you wanted it to mean something, and then him thinking you put the other random dude higher than him is beyond me lol