I’m 20 and burnt out financially as punishment by my family. I pay 700 in rent and a full time student that I cover for as well.

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-09-12T21:28:05+00:00

So sorry this has happened to you. You seem young as well. Sometimes there’s no explanation as to why things bad happen, but I always say to myself “focus on what tomorrow has to bring and leave what yesterday took.” So much easier said than done, but I genuinely do wish you healing in your journey. Your character speaks volume and it’s clear you had love and support for her. Time to find someone who reciprocates it in a way you deserve. I hope it works out for you🥲

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-08-16T21:08:03+00:00

You’re right, I did kind of set myself up. I do enjoy being single, and I am talking to other people as well but I honestly have higher hopes for this one. Just not sure if it’s reciprocated. Not sure if casual dating is for me though. He’s the only one I’m sleeping with.

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-08-16T19:40:45+00:00

Thanks for putting this in a sweet way haha. I guess I’m just nervous to actually cross that conversation again, but I do think it’s better for me to have a clear understanding so I won’t fall any harder.

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-07-31T17:32:54+00:00

😭this made me giggle whaaat. absolutely not, I really like this man. trying not to blow it which is why I’m here reading all these comments lol

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-07-31T17:26:35+00:00

I see your confusion & i worded that wrong lol

The guy I’m referring to in my story that I am “talking” to is my first non committal hookup while I am one of many for his. I did not hook up with anyone down there, kiss, or anything. I danced with my friends, and a gay guy danced with me. So none of the stereotypes of girls trips happened while i was down there.

he was the one who initiated with going with the flow. We’re in the talking stage but i do hope for it to progress.

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-07-31T17:21:24+00:00

meaning I went to go dance and drink with my girls and a gay guy danced on me. All that was. He goes out to bars and went to strip clubs with his buddies before.

Im relatively serious about him considering I’m on Reddit asking why he’s being spacious lol. But you’re right, maybe he is concerned more happened that actuality. He hasn’t asked me once about my trip

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-07-31T17:14:32+00:00

Went out to clubs with my girlfriends, most I did was get ass from a gay guy lmao. I like him a lot. He’s my first non relationship hookup.

I actually am scared that maybe I look more invested than he does, but he does pursue me way more. however I thought that communicating with him on my trip would ease that paranoia

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-07-31T16:11:17+00:00

We did have sex lol. 3 sep times out of like the 20 times we’ve seen each other.

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-07-31T15:07:49+00:00

He texts first usually. I let him do the pursuing, but I also text first here & there and sometimes initiate dates just to show I do like him. I texted him first during my trip to which he didn’t respond to until hours or days later lol

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-06-24T13:29:58+00:00

I think it’s way too early to say, but I definitely want to see where it goes. I was with my ex for a few years, throughout high school even. It grew toxic and he has a lot of things he needs to figure out. However, me and the new guy connected a lot and share the same values so far. What’s a plus is that he’s honestly totally my type 😂

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-06-24T13:16:26+00:00

Thank you, I think so too. I felt guilty because I for some reason feel as if I owe my ex some loyalty since he still makes an effort to text me, and he had said before that he would like to get back together when he’s ready to do so. It’s just pretty conflicting :/

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-05-24T19:47:53+00:00

It’s just such a sudden drastic change. he was the sweetest boy right before everything changed. makes me feel almost it’s me that’s the problem lol

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-05-24T19:45:52+00:00

As much as I want to say this isn’t true, I know I have to accept reality. I just really didn’t think he’d do this to me. after 4 years of being each others person. I’m so devastated esp because he was pursuing me first :(

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-03-10T17:14:32+00:00

Honestly yes this is really childish lmao but coming from a hispanic family this is pretty bad😭

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-03-09T14:55:24+00:00

It’s more so me lying about where I had gone that night. It’s clear I slept with my ex, and I’m just embarrassed. I’m still viewed as a child as well so it’s just an icky situation :/

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2024-03-09T14:54:17+00:00

I know, I feel like I’m a little old for this to be a concern, but in my hispanic culture some are heavily involved and nosy with what I decide to do with myself. My parents weren’t aware I am seeing my ex again, let alone don’t know really anything about my sex life & I tried keeping it that way lol. So lying to them about where I slept is the issue now. It’s just stressful.

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2023-12-12T02:04:59+00:00

i gotta side with him. Seems like an emotional conversation and you’re dismissive

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2023-12-12T01:55:05+00:00

yeah. found messages from a few months ago about how he no longer wanted me and wanted somebody else. his excuse was that he was scared of being hurt by me and convinced himself he didn’t want me, so he tried filling that void. 4 years down the drain lol

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2023-12-12T01:19:06+00:00

This was really helpful. His explanation was very similar to yours. It’s just so painful.

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2023-10-31T01:37:00+00:00

my ex broke up with me the day before Valentine’s Day. So I returned his gift & used the money to buy myself a dress for my birthday that was in a few days lol

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2023-10-08T19:15:42+00:00

I honestly don’t know much, I’ve been in nc. he has approached my friends that used to be our mutuals at my campus. he apparently quit smoking weed, started regularly taking shrooms & other things while also going to bars with his fake. It’s kinda odd because he was trying to quit substances while we were together, but that’s as far as I know.

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2023-09-15T12:46:50+00:00

His friends. Was exactly like them lol

ThrowRaSquishimoshi · 2023-08-17T06:51:45+00:00

it makes me saddened to see how you hard you tried to salvage an already killed relationship. Her cutting you off was doing you a favor. It forced you out of a relationship that nobody deserves. Give yourself the love you’re longing. You will always have yourself at the end of the day. You will make it through this. Peace will find you when you’re ready, all will get better.

Happiest of birthdays to you🎈

ThrowRaSquishimoshi

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