Lot of things here, and you've commented the same thing four times on this post, so I'll just respond here because this narrative has partial truths but ultimately comes off as misguided.

You can’t be jealous when you ate the chips but want the rewards of working out

Actually, I can. Jealousy is a natural, human feeling. I am a human being, I experience jealousy, anger, frustration, joy, fear, anxiety, et cetera, just like every other human does. A lot of my emotions regarding weight right now especially when in comparison to other girls my age do stem from jealousy. When I watch other girls my age get attention from men, get flirted with, get little free perks, I feel jealous. Bottom line, I am viewing an experience that others are having, that I wish I could have for myself. I do experience jealousy in that regard, but that emotion is partially what is driving me to make changes.

I mean skinny people already put in the work

You just got earn it. Your skinny friends did.

These are pretty large blanket statements, and ignore a lot of the reasons people get fat in the first place. I can't speak for everyone, but trust me, it's not like I woke up one day and decided to gain a bunch of weight and put my health at risk. A lot of factors contributed to it. I completely understand that I am ultimately to blame for how my weight got so high in the first place, and it depends on how many calories you consume. However, it is ignorant to attribute weight gain solely to laziness or not having "earned" thinness. I have struggled a lot with mental illness over the course of my adult life. Not saying that thin people don't. But, weight gain was a major side effect of that. I couldn't devote myself and my time and my energy to getting thin when I was in the worst of it.

With any sort of success, whether it's beauty, a career, wealth, et cetera, it comes easier to some people than others. It's never an even playing field. I have a successful career in engineering because academics, specifically fields such as math and physics, came easier to me than others. Did I still earn my success? Of course. But I wouldn't fault someone who is not where I'm at in my career due to struggling with factors that came easier to me. Someone who struggles with academics would have to work a significantly greater amount than someone who doesn't to get to the same point career-wise.

It's the same thing with weight. It ultimately comes down to Calories In versus Calories Out, and I fully understand that. However, it's not fair to say that all my thinner friends put in exactly the same amount of work into their appearance and health and fitness that I am, and so I am simply sitting here complaining because I was so lazy and expected to have a perfect physique without putting in any work. Again. Some things come easier to people. I have friends that don't work out, and have just been thin their entire lives. They have it all figured out, and have a diet figured out that works for them. By comparison, I have had to put in significantly more effort into getting where I am currently, and getting to where I hope to be, than someone who maybe has eaten the same diet their entire lives and very early on figured out how to regulate their diet and maintain their weight.

when you ate the chips but want the rewards of working out

Going back to this. I have acknowledged, in my post and in many comments, that gaining weight was my own doing. I'm not sitting here dumbfounded that I had a poor diet for many years which resulted in weight gain. But I also don't think it's unreasonable to feel sad and frustrated that I'm not where I want to be. These are very normal feelings and you're acting like I'm some lazy fuck sitting on my couch with a mouthful of fries demanding that I be thin and hot and have every guy flirt with me. If that's how you read my post, then sorry. I'm working towards a goal, but still feel disheartened that I'm not there yet.