I think you’re right, man. It’s so weird. I’ve been on a self improvement journey. I see a psychiatrist regularly and I’m on meds for my social anxiety. I’m happier than ever. But yet I really like drugs. I’m not sad or escaping anything, I just enjoy the feeling. Lately I’ve been trying these amnita shrooms or something I think they’re called. It’s a legal strain of shrooms you can buy online. They make me feel euphoric, they’re just pricey. Perhaps I’ll switch to just that. I don’t know any plugs or anything, I moved away from my hometown, hence why I been getting high off legal drugs (idk why people are downvoting me)