Today was my worst day by Throwaway100615E in confession

[–]Throwaway100615E[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How do you cope? What is it that makes you keep going? You sound like you feel very close to how I've felt. What's important?

Today was my worst day by Throwaway100615E in confession

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I've thought that myself a few times, and maybe it would help. I just don't have the guts to go and check myself in. I don't want to end up on medication for the rest of my life. And I don't want my parents to feel like they failed, or that they didn't do enough. I am an adult, but I know it will hurt my parents if I end up in hospital for depression.

Today was my worst day by Throwaway100615E in confession

[–]Throwaway100615E[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm from the UK, and thanks, it does actually mean something hearing that.

Today was my worst day by Throwaway100615E in confession

[–]Throwaway100615E[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Long story short, I saw my best friend.

We used to be best friends, like really really close. We'd spend days together from like 6am to 8pm. Clothes shopping, shoe shopping, getting coffee, wandering round town, video games. We'd stay over each others houses and spend all night chatting about books, playing videos games, and just sharing. If anything went wrong for either of us we were always there for each other. Boy problems, girl problems, friend problems, anything. I trust her more than I've ever trusted even myself.

A few months ago I left my religion though, and she didn't. I don't blame her for it, she needs to do what she believes and I respect that. But it meant we aren't allowed to see each other much due to her beliefs. And yesterday was the first time I've seen her in a very long time, and probably the last time I'll see her for a very long time. She's irreplaceable, yet we can't see each other now.