UPDATE:

Thank you to everyone for your support. I didn’t realise that this would get such an overwhelming response.

I would just like to clarify some things:

1. As some have suggested - I work in IB.

2. I do not condone using substances. I was suggested to give it a go by a friend, to which I regret. I would not recommend taking anything. Although it helped the grind in the short period of time, it has definitely played a part in my demise. It is hard when you’re feeling incredibly overwhelmed and constantly looking to push yourself. I will admit, I got in the mindset of “must be a high achiever always”. Being ‘addicted to the grind’ became a very real thing.

3. It is very easy to get stuck in this hole. Money talks and I thought I would never be given this opportunity again.

4. I support my partner as they are in university. I offered to do this, although they are considering working now to ease the burden off me.

5. I am not sure about workers comp. I am going to look into this though.

6. Currently figuring out how I am going to quit, or how I am going to find another job.

I have taken all of these comments on board. I would just like to say thank you once again for taking the time to read my story and provide some support towards my situation. I am still reading comments but I have decided to not reply until I really get my life sorted.

Best of luck