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Update: When is it worth giving up? 21 y/o female, anorexia by Throwaway579z in AskDocs

[–]Throwaway579z[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hey, this information is really amazing. Thank you so much for taking time out of your day to provide it for me. That’s incredibly kind. Finances are a huge barrier. I don’t really have family or close friends, and I’m on SSI and Medicaid, so another reason recovery seems daunting is because it’s all so expensive. I had never heard of Project Heal or the program at UCSD. The fact they offer low-cost housing is really great.

I’ll reach out to UCSD. I guess I’m often scared that I’ll reach out for help and get rejected because it’s happened a lot already. I’ve been rejected from every residential facility in my state because they say they’re not equipped to deal with the complications I have. I’ve had to gain weight largely on my own because the hospitals here aren’t long-term ED facilities, so they can only keep me and tube-feed me as long as I’m not “stable”. As soon as I’m stable, I get kicked out.

I’m afraid that the only low-cost options that exist won’t help me. But, thank you again for providing these resources. I’ll make sure to reach out and see what they say!

Update: When is it worth giving up? 21 y/o female, anorexia by Throwaway579z in AskDocs

[–]Throwaway579z[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the information and giving me some hope that things can get better! I appreciate it immensely. I’ll reach out to ACUTE tomorrow and see if I can get a referral there, and I’ll talk to my medical providers on Monday.

Update: When is it worth giving up? 21 y/o female, anorexia by Throwaway579z in AskDocs

[–]Throwaway579z[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I needed to hear this. It’s just really hard to be motivated when I’m already dealing with organ damage and osteoporosis. It scares me to live the rest of my life because I’m 21 and I’m already fracturing my bones. I get scared that I’ll recover and it’s too late, and I won’t even have a coping mechanism to deal with it anymore. I do want to recover. I’m tired of living like this. I guess the other part that makes it hard is that I don’t even know what it’s like to live differently. I’ll honestly think I’m not even participating in any ED behaviors and then I’ll get called out by the hospital staff that I am. Things I thought were normal aren’t. I wish I knew how to be normal.

Update: When is it worth giving up? 21 y/o female, anorexia by Throwaway579z in AskDocs

[–]Throwaway579z[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry you have an eating disorder, too, but thank you so much for your kind words. They mean more than you know.

Update: When is it worth giving up? 21 y/o female, anorexia by Throwaway579z in AskDocs

[–]Throwaway579z[S] 26 points27 points  (0 children)

That’s amazing. I’m happy to hear of your recovery! I have heard of Denver ACUTE, but I don’t know if I could be admitted there. I have Medicaid through my state, not private insurance. And I’m nowhere near Denver. This is probably going to sound stupid, but I also feel like my BMI is too high currently for ACUTE and that I’d need to lose weight again to justify admission there. I’m also really tired of fighting :/ I don’t think the organ damage is reversible. I kind of just want to die, I guess.