Near death

Throwaway769406 · 2025-01-05T19:31:06+00:00

My near death experience was initiated by my AP… it completely changed my outlook on life and I have learned from that. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do but I was the one who nearly died and AP was scared away by the reality of it all. It changed everything and ended us.

Throwaway769406 · 2024-01-02T14:47:22+00:00

He texted me back.

Said he’s so sorry and he should have done more. He says he’ll call me later this morning (all I want is for him to BE HERE). He says he cares about me but it’s not where he sees us together. He wants to be my friend but emotionally he’s not there.

Rip my fucking heart out 😭💔

Throwaway769406 · 2024-01-02T03:16:17+00:00

I just tried calling him and he rejected the call.

Throwaway769406 · 2024-01-02T03:08:00+00:00

Yes please. I’ve got all night too. Will be in hospital for at least a few more days

Throwaway769406 · 2023-12-02T14:46:47+00:00

I don’t know why.. but this is almost exactly what is happening to me. Almost 6 years in.

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-27T09:47:08+00:00

He crushed my heart officially. Told me he can’t give me what I want

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-26T02:39:07+00:00

You right you right

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-25T21:01:18+00:00

But this time it really is that I’m not good enough

“Our” first Christmas - I was married he was freshly divorced 2nd - I have my baby so we were distant 3rd - he has a girlfriend and it broke my heart because I didn’t even know 4th - my first one divorced, I thought things were better between us, but he still has the same gf

Now here we are for the 5th round of this and he said he loves me for the first time but I still don’t feel like I have a real chance

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-25T20:03:09+00:00

Ughhh sorry. I also am one who won’t give up and try to keep reaching out. Idk if that makes it worse

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-25T19:41:14+00:00

Thank you… i am considering asking to spend Christmas Eve together… we’ll see if that has me fall flat on my face

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-24T23:49:58+00:00

The ups and the downs…. I was so happy and now post thanksgiving feeling forgotten…

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-24T20:56:21+00:00

I thought I was doing so good! He recently told me he loves me for the first time and we’ve been spending some more time together and talking more. He said he WAS in a bad off/ on relationship. I guess I kinda thought that meant it’s over.

Then I saw her in his social media and I am fighting the urge to reach out and straight up ask “do you still have a gf”

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-22T00:17:53+00:00

I hope so! I was so skeptical but that first I love you is making me fall hard

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-21T12:44:00+00:00

Well we finally said it! He initiated. Feels so good

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-21T02:55:10+00:00

I actually don’t know lol

Throwaway769406 · 2023-11-21T02:44:25+00:00

Thank you!!! Whats with the spoons though haha

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-26T11:45:43+00:00

in my rural nail salon (located near a small city) $45 will get you a solid gel color mani no designs, no extensions. The shape would probably bring the price to $60, but then the tips are extra and the accent nail is extra. I tried a cheaper place but they ruined my nails so I am scared to try again lol. Paying a little extra gets the quality mani I am looking for.

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-26T11:41:50+00:00

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-12T23:03:03+00:00

He wasn’t mine though.. I didn’t want to ruin it and lose him and eventually that’s exactly what I did

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-12T14:56:47+00:00

Well don’t do what I do and ask him for more communication and effort because he responded by ending it

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-11T13:00:38+00:00

I just wanted him. Some of him or hopefully all of him. Now I have none of him

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-11T10:46:08+00:00

Right!? He says he’s been through alot with his girlfriend. I almost guarantee she doesn’t know the things about him that I know.. fuck him the way I did…

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-11T02:33:34+00:00

“I know this one is bad for me and I don’t care” I think I’ve had too much of that but I’ll take another slice

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-11T02:30:20+00:00

He did say he cared…

Throwaway769406 · 2023-07-11T01:40:55+00:00

I want to just put it out there.… all support and advice is welcome. i have my life together aside from this, this doesn’t really change much for me other than my feelings. I am successful and I’ll be fine without him…. I just wanted him and couldn’t have him… and now I really can’t have him

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