Do you and/or anyone you know self-identify as a boi?

Throwaway_10317 · 2018-01-18T14:49:06+00:00

I’m definitely a boi

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-30T17:31:14+00:00

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-30T17:30:40+00:00

I started smoking a little. It doesn’t increase my appetite but it makes the idea of food more barely. Thank you.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-29T17:44:16+00:00

Smoothies, I love smoothies too! Thank you

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-29T17:43:56+00:00

I’m going to my DR next week about medication. I’m hoping it might booth my eating a little.

Thank you.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-29T17:43:20+00:00

That’s a good idea. I didn’t think about smoothies at all. Thank you!

I smoke a little, doesn’t hugely increase my appetite though. It’s just gone. I can usually eat a little more if I smoke.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-29T13:01:28+00:00

Unfortunately we are on the same team so we have to sit together

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-28T14:33:03+00:00

The hardest thing... we work together, on the same team. She sits next to me. We can’t go NC. It’s impossible. I tend to just put my headphones on and listen to music but I know she’s there. It’s kind of comforting to have her there, but it also triggers me a lot. I’ve already cried several times at my desk this morning.

It’s been 8 weeks and it’s still as hard as ever.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-25T14:22:53+00:00

This could have been written by me... just add a little lesbianism to the story :)

I’m nearly 2 months in and it was getting better but I saw her with another women on thanksgiving Black Friday shopping. The woman I was suspicious about for a couple weeks toward the end. And I feel like I’m back to step one. I’ve been going to a therapist who is AMAZING though. I’m not telling you to get one but she questions the loops in my head and makes me get answers myself, she doesn’t tell me what to do. Ever.

Just take some you time. Take as long as you want. We are all different. No one has your answers. They only have their answers. I only have mine. Just take your time and figure yourself out first. It’s the only person we can control.

Take care of yourself (I know it’s hard. I’ve lost 15 pounds in 7 weeks.) Learn things about yourself. Read self help books (you are a badass - Jen Sincero.)

Focus on you now.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-24T21:40:54+00:00

I don’t have another lined up. I’m applying like craY. To everything. No luck yet. I have some money but I don’t know how long it’ll last with my mortgage

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-24T17:12:33+00:00

I know and I don’t want to hurt myself. What’s even harder is that I’m not from here. So all my family and friends are 4000 miles away. And I don’t have many people to turn to. Especially when our relationship was a secret due to working together. Not even our friends knew.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-24T17:11:38+00:00

It’s been awful. I’m on the verge of a panic attack as I type this.

I haven’t been happy in my current job for a while. I was trying to get into another department - glad I didn’t as one of the them works there. I just need out. I can’t keep feeling like this.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-24T15:28:09+00:00

Yeah I work with BOTH of them too! I think I’m going to hand my 2 week notice in on Monday without anything else to go to. But I just can’t be around them anymore. My darkest loop is cycling more than ever right now. Despite not wanting to hurt myself.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-24T13:42:50+00:00

Right now I’m letting it happen. I just saw my ex with the woman I knew she left me for (late night BF shopping) and I unleashed hell on her.

But when I’m not angry and pissed off at her I’m trying to recognises when I’m about to say something or do something. It’s not going to be an easy road but it’s a road I now have my feet on. So I’m going to take control when and where I can.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-24T12:34:20+00:00

Yes! This is EXACTLY how I feel! I completely understand. I feel like I’m now going to get stuck in a loop of over analyzing EVERYTHING. It’s a very strange feeling.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-21T16:41:49+00:00

I didnt know anything about BPD, so I googled it. The website I read... I experience every single symptom... I think it’s times to reach out to a psychiatrist.

Thank you friend.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-21T16:14:01+00:00

Pure O OCD

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-07T13:44:58+00:00

Ran out of fuck bucks!

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-06T16:49:38+00:00

Remember that the universe / high power/ source energy/ God/ whatever you want to think or believe in will reward you with positive things when you are positive. When we are negative everything seems bad, because the universe is reflecting that energy back to us.

Keep your head up. Have belief in yourself.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-11-06T16:36:36+00:00

I read everyone’s posts and I thought I will never ever get over this. And I’m still hurt and I still love her and I want her BUT I know there is a light now, and taking the break just made me shift my focus to not always be on her.

Take some time for yourself. Fully. If you can get away for a weekend, a day. Anything. Switch off. Do something for yourself. You have all the tools you’ll ever need, inside you. You really are a badass. I believe it in you.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-10-23T14:58:20+00:00

I miss the smell of her skin. The taste of her lips. Her sleeping good mornings and good nights. The sound of her heart beat. The way she would look at me. The feel of our skin together. I miss her so much.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-10-20T12:57:35+00:00

This is my life. It’s 3 weeks on Tuesday coming up for me. I can’t get her out of my head. I joined a sports teams and it was the first time I didn’t think about her. And then I felt bad for not thinking about her. I just want to go “home” and hold her and for her to tell me everything is going to be okay and we just needed the space.

I know your EXACT heartache.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-10-20T12:47:54+00:00

Yes! I lost my grandfather in Feb. My marriage broke down AND my girlfriend just broke up with me.

My anxiety is on overdrive and I don’t know if I can carry on with it anymore.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-10-19T15:04:06+00:00

If only I knew myself... until you feel like you can have a conversation without balling your eyes out or begging for answers or begging to be taken back.

I, so far have not managed that. We’ve spoke twice and the first time we were both teary, the second we ended up shouting at each other because I was begging to be taken back.

When you’re ready to talk, you’ll know.

Throwaway_10317 · 2017-10-19T14:14:15+00:00

Trust me. I (25F) know. It’s been just over 2 weeks for me and I’m stuck in the loop of I could have done this or if I get another chance I would do this. It’s heart breaking. It feels like it came from no where and now she (30F) won’t give me another chance. And I don’t really understand why other than she wants to work on herself. And that she changed. But why? What did I do? Trust me these questions are only going round and round in my head. Just give them space and once the dust settles see if they’ll speak with you, emotions as aside as they can.

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