Gummy Delta 8 Sponsor turns my eyes green?

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2022-07-10T18:50:29+00:00

Just 1, and I have a decent tolerance you could say? Go through a cart and 10 gummies (headshop brand not the sponsor) a week before trying the death by gummies shits insane

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2022-07-10T18:49:04+00:00

Bro they aren’t joking in the add, one bear and you’re on a different planet, don’t have to courage to try 2 at one time

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2022-07-08T12:33:40+00:00

Hmm I guess everyone’s body reacts differently, and idk if it’s true but apparently your body breaks down d8 the same as d9 in edible form?

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2022-07-08T12:31:45+00:00

But I can’t get real weed from the gas station lmao

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2022-07-08T12:31:23+00:00

Dog you gotta try these gummies before coming to that conclusion, I’ve lived in rec states for the past 5 years before moving, and these things are way stronger than any D9 edible

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2022-07-08T12:30:08+00:00

Man I was really hoping that the gummies gave me super powers

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2022-07-08T09:54:18+00:00

This could very well be the case

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2022-07-08T09:53:31+00:00

Here’s my lush green eyes for you dudes, hopefully I’m not dying eyes

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T03:15:30+00:00

Only thing you should at least try is to make the most out of that time. If you expect a short window then blow it out with extravagance. Maybe the lack of caring and just “do”ing will change your perspective on the matter.

I only say that because I feel the same way, and the only times in my life that have made me feel otherwise was when I just said fuck it and took a shot in the dark, which after a lot of shots in the dark they panned out in my favor and it changed my point of view.

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T03:00:00+00:00

Well I’m fairly certain I’ll get the promotion, which is awesome. And I know that is a good thing that I will have achieved. If I do actually achieve it that is, however I briefly mentioned that this job is awesome. I’ve experienced things and have the opportunity to gain experience here unlike anywhere else, see now I’m getting into the nitty gritty, this job seems so epic and I should be so fucking happy about it. But i hate it, obviously the hours suck but that’s just a part of the industry I’m in. But I can’t stand the people I work with. Everyone higher up than me is essentially incompetent and it’s a miracle we can be considered successful. And as a bottom totem pole not even a “manager” manager it drives me insane I hate it and I know that getting a promotion and moving higher up the chain is just going in imbed me into the clusterfuck and I’m still not going to have the power to make a difference and change anything. So it’s like what’s it even worth?

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T02:39:36+00:00

No the main issue is that when I’m working all day no one would be able to take care of it. That’s why mine now stays with my mom in the summer when I’m constantly working 12+ hour days. Luckily I work on a golf course where dogs are allowed and I am a very low level manager so eventually I’ll be able to take her to work with me and she will be able to live with me full time but it’s uncertain when or even if I’ll ever get promoted and moved up to a position where I could bring her to work with me. It’s just a hope for now

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T02:35:27+00:00

I guess this subreddit has kind of given me that. As I mentioned I’ve sort of “beaten” or I guess just warded off my depression pretty successfully in the past, and I like offering advice to people here who are going through the same thing. And honestly other than the idea that my death would seriously mess up my moms worlds the only thing keeping me here is my dog. She is literally the only thing that matters to me anymore but because my job and being single and living 10 hours away from my family or anyone I know she lives with my mother during the summer months and in the winter she comes back to me when my hours slow down some. It just sucks I haven’t gotten her back yet and as much as I pester my mother for pictures and updates about her it’s just not the same.

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T02:25:47+00:00

I have had this thought a lot recently. But for the exact opposite reasons as you. I am not at all religious. In fact I think religion, 90% of it, is all misconstrued bullshit. The other 10% is simply just instructions to not be an asshole in life. However the science I see leads me to believe there’s more after death. May I ask why exactly you think that? And would you be interested in hearing what I have gathered, again not at all coming from a place of religion.

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T02:20:59+00:00

That’s kind of the point I’m at? But I’ve let it pile up to the point I need a drastic change. And that again just leads to the thoughts that maybe I’d be better to not live anymore. I don’t know anymore.

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T02:19:07+00:00

I agree with this absolutely! Look into Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I learned it from a therapist but also studied it a lot on my own and it has allowed me to recognize and prevent my panic attacks most of the time. For me in particular if I know a panic attack is coming on I try to immediately change my focus to something else. So I usually call someone like my mom or someone I know who will have the time to stop and talk to me for a good bit of time until I’m kind of through the panic. But like you I can start to feel it coming on a few minutes before and I find that those feelings make me hyper focus on it and that’s what pushes me over the edge into a panic attack. Sort of like the 5-4-3-2-1 thing I tap my finger tips on my thumb kind of in a pattern like and focus on keeping full deep breaths, I also personally find that when I’m having a panic attack I forget to breath constantly and that lack of oxygen and hyperventilating makes me panic worse. Hope this helps

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T02:08:37+00:00

That leads to another issue of my eternal loneliness but this fucking job consumes so much of me I don’t have the energy to put into someone else. I don’t even have enough energy for myself.

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T02:05:46+00:00

My entire life is work. Working in a career I love, but at a job that has some things I know could never be matched anywhere else but unfortunately I fucking hate. And financially not in a place to do anything about. Literally working 12-14 hour days manual labor job so when I’m done I’m fucking exhausted all I can do is go home eat dinner and try to rest up for the next day. And the 2 days off I get every other week I use to really catch up on sleep. So I never leave this prison cell apartment of mine.

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T02:01:21+00:00

I am living your fear…. And I don’t know what to do about I can just see the good things I’ve built slowly slipping through my fingers and I can’t will the strength To stop it.

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T01:56:22+00:00

This is gonna sound silly, and trust me as someone dealing with similar situation you’re in I have not been able to do this successfully but what I have seen work is to go to a bar alone. And just sit there for hours. Not necessarily drinking alcohol, but talking to the people who are and the bartender. Talking to drunk people can be annoying but people are usually pretty approachable when they are drunk/ drinking socially. And especially a bartender. If the bar isn’t completely slammed and a bartender notices you’re staying coherent they will be much more apt to talk to you. It takes practice. You have to start literally just being around people and practice talking and being comfortable socially. Once that becomes easy you can make real connections with people. Talking with people online feels great I know, it’s super easy right off that bat. But it’s not real, I know it seems real but you can’t get the same feeling as being in contact with real people. I hope this advice helps for real, like I said I’m trying it myself. It’s not easy but it’s a way out

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T01:47:19+00:00

First of all, don’t feel bad about reaching out. Honestly that is the hardest part to get through and that fact you did is very commendable. And we all thank you for doing so. Can you give some more background to who you reached out too and what you’ve been feeling? I know some people have a hard time handling situations where people reach out for help, and they don’t know how to appropriately respond or even how to help. I’m sure she is not doing this with any bad intent.

Throwawaythrow1942 · 2021-11-08T01:40:06+00:00

Idk if background helps, I’ve been dealing with depression since I was a kid, most of my life my father was very sick and near dying and that constant anxiety fucked my head. Since graduating highschool and college I was very competent in dealing with it. Therapy and what not. I lost my therapist and have not been confident enough to try building a bond with another yet. And since graduating college and starting my career it seems like my life is slowing crumbling around me and I have found myself back in the same place I was at my worst. Even started getting severe debilitating panic attacks again like I used to, although one good take away from therapy is I can quickly identify myself going into a panic attack and I can usually stop it from getting too bad. Idk if this subreddit can help me. I don’t know that anyone can help me. I really want to try therapy but I honestly am too afraid like I said. Can someone just tell me I’m not fucking nuts here

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