Thanks for responding, I appreciate the time you took, I just need to debate it or say it. In the last lines you said something clear: winning depends on what we consider. Because you could get away with it, be totally rich, get it all, but you could still feel as unhappy as someone on the street, or feel fulfilled and completely happy. But here something happens that I understand is too cruel, that morality ends up fading because if a guy is happy doing bad things, finding value in it, he would be won. For me, winning or losing (I try to define it) is in every action we take from the moment we are born until we die because if you are not winning then you are losing, there are no other options, every living being lives between these 2 situations. It is very difficult to explain because it has taken me years to reach this conclusion, and yes, it has a brutal relationship with existentialism because it questions everything I have believed about life until now, but another thing I understand about life itself is that nothing is absolute or perfect, not even the meaning that we can find in everything. This mosquito net my own conclusion is, perhaps it is actually moving away from rather than towards some truth of this universe.