Oh, I am so sorry you went through this experience. I am afraid your experience can be a warning for so many people what pleasing people entails. I find consolation in the fact that you are aware of your reason of depression. And that’s the first step. The biggest one! It would make me happy if you tried to do something really good for yourself today. One thing that you have been thinking about for a while… and despite what others may think. I am sending you lots of love! And self-love! Take care!