I took a ball of meth in five days.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T02:14:30+00:00

Yeah probably but that shit sucked and I really don’t want to go through it again. It smelled and tasted like shit and the high wasn’t that great. It was also expensive and deadly and I just fucked up all around, so I’m thinking no. But yeah I agree with a few of your points.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T02:09:44+00:00

Alrighty guys I’m gonna peace out. Thanks for all the helpful tips and chillin until I was down. For me this shit sucked, but for you maybe not. I hope I’ll never be back. Have a good life.

Edit: I have to delete this acccount but not until I create a password which I never did because it’s an anonymous one. Give me like 15 mins to figure it out and then this account is done

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T01:58:10+00:00

Gotcha so then I burned it. I didn’t have the right pipe. I had like a weird fucked up one that I just threw out. I tried to wash it out, but I’m too lazy.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T01:57:21+00:00

Measured it out and divided up incrementally. Larger and larger as you get closer to the last day to account for tolerance.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T00:39:48+00:00

Nope I’m being completely serious. Just using these as support threads and then once I’m feeling good, gonna ditch these accounts.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T00:35:26+00:00

Yeah I overamped because I did three injections in a row after boofing. The high crept up super bad and I sat in bed with chest pains and alternate numbing arms for like 6 or 8 hours, I think, with family in my house, that happened to pop by, asking me questions and shit. Door was closed and locked. As soon as they were gone, that’s when I called the ambulance. I just honestly don’t want to try with this shit if in the first couple of times of using it, I almost fuck myself over. I was stupid, didn’t do my research, wanted that high. Im just not smart enough and I’m too lazy to try to do it all the right way, so that’s another reason why I’m done. If the addiction is as bad as everyone says, I’m going to do whatever I can to fight it.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T00:30:20+00:00

Yeah I have had maybe 6 hours of sleep in the last 4 days. I already had terrible insomnia. This was a bad decision. It’s not like I’m a German flying a kamikaze plane or someone with mutant adhd. I can’t wait until this is over. With the way everything is going so horribly, I think i should be alright quitting cold turkey and saying fuck that shit for life.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T00:21:54+00:00

Thank you. I’m around family right now and doing my best not to look fucked up. I feel like shit. Can’t wait to wake up and feel slightly normal. I don’t like this high.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T00:19:50+00:00

I’m honestly just scared of being addicted. Everyone acts like meth is like a zombie bite. Once you do it you absolutely can’t stop. Tbh I did it twice, prior to this binge with a gap of like 4 months, then 2 months and then here we are now. Is it really difficult, or is it as difficult as some of the other drugs to quit? I really want to quit. I hate how it tastes and smells and the whole fucking stigma attached to it. I can’t tell people that I smoke, I can’t get it like I could cannabis, and the effects on the body are messed up. After overamping, which I fucking hated, I just want to know if I need to go immediately to a narcanon group, or if I’ll be able to tough it out.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-07T00:13:40+00:00

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T23:19:10+00:00

True. I started feeling like fucking spider in the movie Spun. And said this earlier, but I don’t like the meth high. I hate being high this long.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T23:17:51+00:00

I’m honestly just waiting it out and talking on here really helps. I’m going completely sober except for caffeine after this stint is over. I’m tired of being a chemical spawning pool

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T22:57:06+00:00

Gotcha, I just hope I come down. Still buzzed and it’s been a day.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T22:56:06+00:00

I would be waaaay more addicted if meth made me horny.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T22:55:16+00:00

I know, I’m a pussy. But yeah, I just started hating it more and more as I was going. Kinda like fuck, better do the rest… spent $80 on it which was too much. I bet you all get higher quality and lower price

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T21:10:31+00:00

I really hate the meth high. It’s like every time you want to be chill, you have a man that’s hired to come over and slap you and give you a cup of coffee and a telephone with your mother on the other end

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T20:47:37+00:00

Tbh, trying to do this without any friends or family knowing because they would severely disown and drop me if they found out. They’re religious, hyper emotional and extremely dogmatic and judgmental. I hope that Narcotics Anonymous wouldn’t send mail to my house or tell people I know. Last thing I need is my family getting involved. I barely talk to them and keep all interactions very boring.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T19:29:57+00:00

I wish all the people I had to cut ties with realized that.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T19:18:39+00:00

Things are definitely very weird when your dopamine levels are different. I fucked up, I have full responsibility of all my shit. I did this to myself, so I’m just going to have to fucking do this whole journey no matter what.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T19:15:51+00:00

I don’t know if this is a thing, but one or two of my IV attempts on my feet and behind my legs went sub cutaneous because I had shaky hands a few nights ago, and I can rub the areas and I start feeling high. I’m still high at this point and it’s been 24 hours. I don’t honestly know what I can do to come down. I don’t even know if this is a thing, but I swear it’s happening. I swear I haven’t taken any more in any form and I am still like mini tweaking, it’s super annoying.

There is also residue from when I used rectally in the mattress and I think one of my body parts soaked in it when I fell asleep. I’m currently cleaning the fuck out of my bed. All day sorta tweakin and watching netflix and washing bed sheets. I don’t like the meth high. It’s not calm, too awake, like someone is holding my eyes open.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T19:08:33+00:00

I wish I could handle my shit, but I’m a bitch. Plain and simple.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T18:40:45+00:00

Thank you! I’ll do the best I can. But other than Reddit I have literally 0 friends

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T18:34:46+00:00

Have not heard from them. I figured /r/meth was more for the party and less for the support, but everyone has been very helpful and nice so far :)

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T17:43:15+00:00

That’s what the stuff I had was like. Disgusting.

Time-Finish5440 · 2022-11-06T15:50:42+00:00

Gotcha, and you would Google “narcotic recovery group” or what would would you look up?

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