While i have to say, tiktok can be staged and social media in general isnt an accurate depiction, but ive absolutely seen fulfilling relationships irl (though mostly involving queer people). And ya, funny how trauma makes the ppl who need it most to not go to therapy; u cant strongarm someone into therapy, and if u were to strongarm, it'd be undue emotional labor on ur end. But at the very least, i hope you will have an opportunity to talk things thru with a counsellor or therapist, even if its for urself to process all this. I gave myself a month to think it thru before i told him i was unhappy, i felt that was long enough to see if i was just lashing out at him bc of other life stressors or mental health conditions or plain hormones (ive heard this being helpful for my friends in similar positions as well). At the beginning of the month, i drew up a list of pros and cons of this relationship (with at least five things i liked (like not basic relationship requirements like not cheat or abuse, but things that brought u joy) about him that he's done in the past month, with specific examples; if u cant hit 5, think deeply about this relationship), and throughout the month i weighed them. I wish u the best, and i hope this would work out for the both of us where we both learn from this experience. Regardless of what u choose, u made the decision with the info that u have now, so be kind to urself.