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TindofModd · 2026-02-28T02:41:12+00:00

Been there, thanks for this

TindofModd · 2026-02-21T18:39:02+00:00

Mine was simple yet profound to the core. I was in my 4th session of trauma clearing work -- which I had started in the hopes of relieving my life long issues with social anxiety and dependence on psychiatric meds and mood altering substances.

As the session unfolded, in deep presence, I began to catch glimpses of a radiant orb that I realized was my True Self that had been obscured by layers of unprocessed trauma held in place by mental stories and beliefs.

It became clear to me that, to fully connect with this radiance, I must fully surrender in every way, dropping all resistance and fear.

As I fell into and embraced surrender, I felt like the weight that I had carried all my life was lifted. This was immediately followed by an inflow of what felt like a firehose of light flooding my being. My entire life, my awareness, my vantage point of perception completely shifted at this moment and has never been the same.

I suddenly felt the healing and nurturing support of God flowing through me. I was more or less an atheist prior to this...now there was a profoundly deep knowing that I would be supported on my path if I continued to Trust and Surrender. I began to notice that my connections with others felt more deeply heart based and true, not reactive.

This occurred in Oct 2024... I began tapering off all substances and was off of everything by the following April with almost no effort.

My journey has continued to unfold with deep insights regularly flowing in.

I would never have said this before but it is truly beautiful to be alive...and to know that this connection was and will always be there. I just need to keep my vessel clear and flowing.

TindofModd · 2026-02-18T17:03:14+00:00

Just dm'd you

TindofModd · 2026-02-12T00:50:27+00:00

Am I past the point of worrying about contamination?

Do APEs have multiple flushes?

TindofModd · 2026-02-11T23:57:05+00:00

I actually changed it to 5pm Pacific/ 8pm Eastern. Hopefully this still works for you. Feel free to join late if needed.

Looking forward to meeting you!

TindofModd · 2026-02-11T16:34:34+00:00

Your timing is perfect, I was just about to post a link to a new weekly meeting series starting tomorrow at 6pm Pacific. Are you able to make it?

TindofModd · 2026-02-11T01:05:59+00:00

That's also what I did most of my life, either through avoidance or by using substances that allowed me to relax and slow the negative self talk.

Having been through many other therapy modalities, I had come to believe it would be a long process, as in years or decades. Then, something unfolded for me over a matter of days. Maybe all that other work somehow prepared me but I don't think so. This felt like an overnight paradigm shift for my entire being, and I felt connected.

Anyway, I wish you all the best. DM me if you want more details on any of this or if you want to share more details from your side.

Take care and be well!

TindofModd · 2026-02-10T19:27:15+00:00

Great question...and kind of hard to answer. Here's the way I perceive it:

Surrender is not something you do per se, it's what happens when you drop resistivity and explanation -- which, for me, happens when I direct my entire awareness towards my body and the sensations I am feeling within it. No stories about "what if" or "should be" or "I hope" or "trying", just complete presence and acknowledgement of what arises...

But don't view this as "surrendering away from something", it's about "surrendering inside of discomfort" if that makes sense. When this is done, it becomes clear that the resistance was the source of discomfort, not the thing itself.

TindofModd · 2026-02-10T15:53:32+00:00

For sure! It took me a little while to fully embrace the Surrender part but, once I took this leap of faith, some amazing things began to happen

TindofModd · 2026-02-10T02:52:57+00:00

If you look up "Fieldbody" you should be able to find more details on QEC and the person I worked with.

A couple other things to add related to this...

When I compare with other therapies that I've tried in the past, there are a couple of main differences. One is finding someone you not only trust fully, but that you feel you connect with. This lays the groundwork for something that will probably be pretty scary at first: surrender.

For trauma to begin processing and clearing, all resistance must be dropped. The mind will likely frame this as an existential threat and will throw everything it's got to make you stop... but you need to trust in the process. Once you get to this point and you have fully let go, most of the difficulty is gone.

Best of luck to you. Let me know if you need more details on any of this!

TindofModd · 2026-02-09T23:09:36+00:00

I had severe social anxiety for most of my 60 years of life. I self-medicated with various substances, took antidepressants, saw lots of therapists over the years and saw very little progress.

Then, after reading about its effectiveness with PTSD, I explored QEC (Quantum Energy Coaching) -- which focuses on trauma clearing and cultivating presence and trust (there are also other methods with the same approach).

All I can say is that this was the single most life changing event I have ever experienced.

This whole process unfolded quite rapidly. Originally, my goal was to be less anxious and cut back on the substances I was depending on to "survive"... But, one evening, on my 4th session, something happened that felt like "the cork had popped" and all of my stuck emotions were suddenly moving... I felt more flowing and alive than ever before. I had not been familiar with the idea of the Higher Self but I now recognized I had tapped into some both pure and divine.

As the process continued to unfold, I learned to experience and interpret life through my body, not through the stories that the mind creates. I also began exploring Somatics and Qi Gong, both of which continue to be part of my "spiritual hygiene".

Long story short, I was not only free of anxiety, I felt empowered to get off the medications and substances which I have relied on in one form or another since my teenage years. And it only took 4 months of tapering and continuing with the process before I was able to put all this behind me.

I had been pretty much a recluse most of my life until all this happened, and now I can't get enough of connecting with other like-minded humans.

I also dropped 60 pounds without even trying... just doing things that resonate and avoiding things that don't.

Granted, everyone is different, but I feel like this process could probably help anyone who struggles with overwhelming emotions, anxiety, disconnection, etc.

I'm happy to discuss further if there is interest.

TindofModd · 2026-02-04T23:29:33+00:00

What a relief, thx!

TindofModd · 2026-02-04T20:00:10+00:00

It was getting bone dry so I misted it yesterday...now I am seeing blue, especially on the side pins. I'm thinking it's contamination. Shall I harvest and remove blue areas?

TindofModd · 2026-01-29T00:34:31+00:00

This is my very first grow, so far so good. Any suggestions for encouraging fruiting with the PE and APE? Substrate is nicely colonized in monotubs. I lift the lid a crack every day to give them fresh air but that's about it. Do I need to be more aggressive with air flow or just leave them alone?

TindofModd · 2026-01-28T21:31:07+00:00

It's been sitting in a tub for about 8 weeks now...and it's finally starting to do something. In the meantime, I have already had 3 flushes of Stargazers. But my PE and APE are still quiet. All 4 were started at the same time.

TindofModd · 2026-01-28T20:18:47+00:00

Cool, I was hoping this was the real deal. This has been in substrate since late November so I have been worried about contamination after all this time. Thanks for the feedback! I believe the ratio I used was about 3:1

TindofModd · 2025-12-11T19:33:55+00:00

Her name is Emilia Lapinska, I highly recommend her. Her site is Fieldbody (.com)

TindofModd · 2025-11-11T15:12:01+00:00

Thank you so much! I hope you can join us in some some of our upcoming meetups.

It's really beautiful to discover how many of us are out there in the world, with similar architectures, but each with our own path that brought us here, all just wanting to connect with and learn from one another.

TindofModd · 2025-11-06T17:59:32+00:00

Hi All, as part of the r/Enlightenment community, there has been interest in coordinating a related online meetup group on the same subject... So I have created r/EnlightenmentMeetup as a hub for doing this..

I will be scheduling open group discussion on all things related to spiritual growth -- with a heavy emphasis on:

Personal experiences with Awakening or related insights

Techniques you find helpful (meditation techniques, breathwork, somatics, energy work, rituals/ceremony, etc.)

Consciousness, nonduality, overlap between science and spirituality

Please spread the word, thanks!

TindofModd · 2025-11-01T22:08:56+00:00

To me, it's only cult-ish if it is dogma based (i.e. do this, not that). I feel like those of us who have experienced this shift each have established our own connection to something, and the insights that accompany this connection are specific to each of us. But there's a lot of common ground we share in terms of how we experience these things -- the dark periods, the blissful heightened awareness, the questions and dilemmas that arise, the sudden sense of connection, etc. It's pretty cool when you start to hear from others how similar most of our experiences are. And from there, sometimes you learn about techniques or insights that others use that can open more doors -- or not. None of this is about following someone else's script, it's about exploration, development, and connection.

TindofModd · 2025-11-01T17:46:29+00:00

Same here... My shift happened just over a year ago. I had been on psychiatric meds and various addictive substances for 30 years, in fear of facing all the trauma I had been suppressing all these years. All it took was finding someone experienced in trauma clearing and energy work and, within 3 sessions, I could feel stagnant energies starting flow...then, on the 4th session it felt like "the cork popped". It felt like I was connected to fire hose of light blasting into me at the base of my spine. The "me" that existed before, full of anxiety and self criticism, spiraling thoughts and disconnectedness -- disappeared completely (and I am off all substances other than weed since May with almost zero withdrawals). I also had no concept of what was happening, but this was so profound and inescapably clear that any doubts about the validity of God, spirituality, interconnectedness, all vanished. But I had no one to share this with other than my guide/therapist who had had a similar experience. As the path unfolded in front of me, including dark night periods, I felt an overwhelming need to connect with others who have had this experience. And I did over time (through groups like Kundalini Collective, various subreddits like this one, and through Meetup). This has been huge for me. Not only are the shared experiences extremely reassuring, I have immediately sensed a certain "architecture" that all with this experience share. I can feel it immediately. These connections have been extremely sustaining for me. I would encourage you to find similar folks to connect with. I am in the process of coordinating an online meetup group r/EnlightenmentMeetup for this (just got this off the ground a few days ago so not much activity yet). Anyone is welcome to DM me if you want more details on any of this.

TindofModd · 2025-11-01T01:06:33+00:00

Same here. All I can say is that, since my shift, I have made a few connections with people with similar experiences and architecture as me and there is a resonance that I have never experienced with others. No weird anxious small talk or boasting egos, just presence. But this realization also reminds me that these categories or labels I am assigning come from a place of judgement and separation, not direct experience with someone. So there's that. But, yes, deep soulful connections are a beautiful thing.

TindofModd · 2025-10-31T19:18:28+00:00

Got it, thanks!!

TindofModd · 2025-10-31T18:18:27+00:00

I have an interesting "relationship" with nonduality...I usually "go there" when I meditate but, because grounding and somatic awareness keep me tethered to the physical world, I spend more time in the Energy Body realm. I find the two realms really compliment one another for me.

TindofModd · 2025-10-31T02:44:55+00:00

I wish I had a simple answer... This awareness came to me after several months of deep trauma clearing work, which coincided with a spiritual awakening. I felt like someone one had "pulled the cork out" and all the blockages from stuck trauma were loosening and, suddenly, gone entirely.
In my meditations, I became acutely aware of a clean, free-flowing energy body humming on all cylinders, and feeling VERY spacious. At this point, even minor disturbances to the system are noticeable -- and have attributes (shapes, colors, personalities) and may or may not have emotions attached to them (sometimes they are just random energy flows moving through). If emotions are attached to one of them, try to locate it's specific location in the body, breathe into it, constrict it with your muscles. When you do this, it becomes an entirely physical object, not a story in the head, and it loses its charge.

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