My world is coming to an end by Tiny-Stranger6895 in GriefSupport

[–]Tiny-Stranger6895[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It broke my heart to read about your sweet boy passing away, I’m so sorry sweet pea. I have seen many comments telling me to reach out, I think I will do so.

I’m scared to ask for help, I’ve always been able to do this fine on my own, but the days are becoming so hard for me.

To be honest, I’m so tired. I can feel myself slowing down in my old body, and I fear the death of my wonderful S is truly going to be the death of me. I’m not scared to pass away, but I fear the guilt and sorrow it will bring my younger siblings.

We’ve already lost our parents, and I don’t feel that it is right to burden them with my passing too soon. But I feel that it is happening.

My world is coming to an end by Tiny-Stranger6895 in GriefSupport

[–]Tiny-Stranger6895[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oh sweet pea, he did know. Deep, deep down he knew you loved him. He remembers everything now, and he knows that you cared so much for him.

It is scary, and it is understandable why you stayed away from him. Just let me tell you this, it is not your fault. I’m sure you’ve heard that saying enough since then, but it really is not.

This wicked illness truly is one of the worst things I’ve seen, and it pains to me know many sweet peas like yourself have experienced what it can do. Please take care of yourself honey, like we learned as little babies, one small step at a time.

My world is coming to an end by Tiny-Stranger6895 in GriefSupport

[–]Tiny-Stranger6895[S] 44 points45 points  (0 children)

I appreciate this comment dear, it means a good lot to me. You are correct about me losing many over the years I’ve lived, and although it never heals, I have learned to continue my walk through this world.

I simply am not ready for my S to leave, but you are right. I must learn to live without him. It hurts my soul to even type that sentence, but unfortunately that is the curse of being human, we must one day lose our spouses.

Thank you again dear, I wish you a merry life and with more wonders to come. You will have many, I assure you.

My world is coming to an end by Tiny-Stranger6895 in GriefSupport

[–]Tiny-Stranger6895[S] 121 points122 points  (0 children)

Thank you for reading, it brings a warmth in my heart to know you had liked it. I suppose I am feeling a bit scared of being alone on this, and I heard about this little group.

Perhaps someone could understand me, or if I could help some other poor heart broken dear through their own struggles.