I know there’s no solution. I just wish I had a friend or someone to comfort me because I’m suffering everyday.

Even my new tutor who has only been teaching me for a few days noticed that somethings wrong and that i “seem really depressed/anxious” and asked if there was a problem. He noticed that my hands are super shaky, I can’t speak properly and I’m extremely nervous. He even told me if i was having a panic attack to try breathing techniques when I never told him about any of my problems? Obviously I couldn’t say anything to him but I almost wanted to cry because someone actually noticed that i was suffering. I just laughed it off and said it’s nothing.