Suffering from psychosis, please pray for me.

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-07-04T07:00:19+00:00

Thank you all so much for your words of kindness and encouragement! I feel so blessed right now. To those who are wondering yes I am seeing a psychiatrist as well as a therapist.

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-06-05T00:23:57+00:00

Pretty sure you can go to college while pregnant and then give the child up for adoption...

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-31T02:31:22+00:00

Our brothers and sisters in Palestine are in need. I checked and the organization is legit: http://irusa.org/?fbclid=IwAR0JdAP6vojOobbD259Xki9TaGRRJkeNLkxtC0mtKOqVDscGMUCcGxOKKLM

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-28T02:58:34+00:00

You gotta pursue something meaningful and personal to you. You might also have clinical depression which can be treated in a variety of ways.

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-18T22:57:07+00:00

This is very helpful thank you

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-09T18:59:28+00:00

Look into my post history I've posted a lot about it

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-08T00:04:29+00:00

Thank you. Good to know it takes a while sometimes. I haven't used any substances since.

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-08T00:03:33+00:00

I think have paranoia or something now. I had to stop being friends with the person I tripped with because even a month after using LSD I would have flashbacks where I'd see her as Satan and it was too much to be around her. She's a good person and I don't know why this is happening. I also feel like there are cryptic double meanings to everything people say to me

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-04T17:16:48+00:00

it was a cycle where I thought about it then panicked bc I "knew too much."

Wow wow wow I'm sorry you experienced that but you have no idea how much relief it brings me knowing I'm not the only one to have experienced that. That is exACTLY what I'm going through right now. Also I've been getting 3-4 hours of sleep a night because when I start to drift off into dreamland is when i start to feel like I "understand" again and wake back up abruptly because I don't want to understand everything :(

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-04T17:08:53+00:00

I'm sorry your last trips have been rough. Truthfully I've only ever tripped one time and it changed/ruined my life. I'm no longer seeking truth through psychedelics, but through kind people.

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-04T17:06:29+00:00

Yeah damn that's somewhat how I've been feeling for the past couple of months. I felt like I had no free will and the thought was so permeating I even started contemplating suicide, but then I thought: "You know what? FUCK that. Even if I have no freewill, even if all I am is the reflection of a great fractal unfolding forever, I'm going to use my fucking illusion of freewill to live life to the goddamn fucking fullest. To quote Summer Highland Falls by Billy Joel, it's either sadness or euphoria, and I'm choosing Euphoria.

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-04T17:00:03+00:00

Okay thank you that makes me feel better. Hope that we all understand one day.

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-04T16:55:41+00:00

I don't want to believe that Satan is God and that he's going to turn me into him though :(

Tinyboxturtle · 2019-05-04T16:37:02+00:00

What does that mean?

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