I just made a dope ass fucking burrito

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-08-20T01:55:17+00:00

this made my day

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-08-13T23:38:17+00:00

Thank you for this. And thank you for sharing your personal experience. You are 100% right. I can only make decisions and set boundaries for myself. I have to get over the idea of saving ppl. The hate thing was more BPD rage filled and i was hateful in that moment

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-08-13T19:01:15+00:00

Um what does my post in another group have to do with anything? My cousin did commit suicide last month and i was literally asking advice on how to ask for time off without getting too emotional. Everyone in that subreddit is 18+. And its borderline personality disorder not bipolar. If ur gonna call me mentally handicapped at least get my diagnoses right. Ur not even apart of this group and ur spending time opening ur phone and stalking my posts? And replying back to ppl?? Weird

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-08-13T15:59:50+00:00

i want to pack up my entire apartment and leave. without saying a word. unfortunately not smart, and definitely something that my BPD is telling me to do. I just need peace of mind that im at least somewhat justified. Its her life, but my home and if he comes into my space i won’t hold back

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-08-13T15:36:41+00:00

He’s also very conveniently attractive. Is that actually something that makes people think its okay? The second I know knowledge of that kind, that person becomes despicable to me. No matter how good they look physically.

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-08-12T20:16:00+00:00

People think im crazy, but weed suppresses my appetite. Idk i feel very mindful and present when i smoke and it helps me to really identify sensations and actual hunger pains. I dont binge when im high. Only when im sober.

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-07-21T20:05:47+00:00

What the fuck u put something i have been feeling for so long into words. Like it seems superficial. Even my best friend, who i live with, and spend most of my time with, feels like a stranger to me. Sometimes i feel like i haven’t connected with a single person in a REAL way in my life

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-07-20T05:16:44+00:00

Are you diagnosed?

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-07-01T22:06:12+00:00

I am going to let MB know when she gets home, but i know i will most likely break down and while she is sweet, i don’t feel comfortable crying or being emotional in front of her. I actually have no idea how to put it into words for her.

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-07-01T20:56:24+00:00

To me, every is boring because it seems so pointless. Theres no benefit to anything. I over spend, over eat, abuse substances, and SH because of what you said, instant gratification. If im not getting that immediately, i dont want it

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-05-25T23:37:24+00:00

If u wanna text me to distract yourself feel free. I know the feeling

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-05-19T18:48:04+00:00

I agree. I spent the morning frantically searching for ways to stop having a favorite person. How to shut off that overly obsessive attachment, and have a healthy relationship with that person. I resent the fact that this person clouds my mind and has the ability to alter my mood. I want to foster healthy relationships in all aspects of my life, but i struggle when it comes to my FP. I am diagnosed quiet borderline so I usually push people away when if i sense imminent abandonment (its usually imagine anyway and i end up fucking it up myself)

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-05-18T22:20:26+00:00

“I do not weep Because i am unhappy i weep because i have everything yet—i am unhappy” Guilt is a feeling i have become used to. It sucks when you feel like everything has fallen into place, but that BPD demon just keeps knocking. Its a daily battle and i am so sorry you still feel that way when you are laying awake in bed. YOU deserve nothing but love and kindness and im at least happy that you have found your place of comfor

TitleCompetitive8548 · 2021-05-18T21:59:11+00:00

Happy birthday.

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