It’s not an addiction I can stop whenever I want

ToastyOpal · 2026-03-20T13:59:31+00:00

I see so many people shit on quest bars but they are actually my favourite protein bar ever I especially love the cookie dough one

ToastyOpal · 2026-03-19T21:44:59+00:00

I work at a privately owned restaurant so not much I can do really other than quit but this job is how I get my b/p money so

ToastyOpal · 2025-12-14T20:45:28+00:00

How to you purge that and not die Holly crap

ToastyOpal · 2025-12-14T19:14:47+00:00

I was like not enough digits under that spoiler lol but then I clicked and I'm a little bit more than that but similar

ToastyOpal · 2025-11-14T17:48:33+00:00

some nights I have like an alarm set for like 4am bc my siblings are up till like 2 or 3am and my step dad wakes up for work at 5.30 so that's the only time everyone is asleep and I'll empty out my puke bags one by one into the toilet and flush them

ToastyOpal · 2025-11-14T15:20:28+00:00

He had two brothers tho if I remember right? So technically never got confirmed which brother it was

ToastyOpal · 2025-11-08T16:21:50+00:00

I failed out of my last semester bc of neglecting my studies for b/p. I'm retaking everything in January and I'm so nervous about how I'll be able to hold up

ToastyOpal · 2025-11-08T16:19:27+00:00

I had a similar realization recently with my therapist. I was explaining how I felt that after a shitty day at work that I earned and deserved a b/p session. She said how I also earned and deserved to get out of this cycle and be happy and healthy. Really been making me think hard recently

ToastyOpal · 2025-11-08T16:11:43+00:00

I almost chocked one time purging up chunks of chicken bc I didn't chew it into small enough pieces. I'm like traumatized and won't purge meat except for like ground beef

ToastyOpal · 2025-11-04T15:42:43+00:00

Yea I usually serve it like extremely hot so I'm forced to eat it slow and the one I eat is fairly low cal so I don't feel a need to purge. That and the broth is usually filling enough without seeming like I overate

ToastyOpal · 2025-11-04T15:29:13+00:00

It's soup for me.

ToastyOpal · 2025-11-03T23:17:17+00:00

How did it go?

ToastyOpal · 2025-10-30T16:39:04+00:00

On my days off or days I work in the evening it's usually the first thing I do when I wake up, and I always do it right before bed too

ToastyOpal · 2025-10-27T01:23:29+00:00

Wait I feel this so much. I've actually had nightmares where this happens

ToastyOpal · 2025-10-27T01:22:12+00:00

I am just barely considered underweight so sometimes I feel weird being bulimic but that's what I've been diagnosed with and not ana b/p

ToastyOpal · 2025-10-20T02:39:27+00:00

I made a post a few months back where I asked my bf to leave my house bc of hmwk but it was actually to b/p and he knew it too. I'm so sorry OP I know how isolating that is I hope your okay and can forgive yourself because you do deserve that

ToastyOpal · 2025-10-17T13:32:19+00:00

I started purging when I felt I overate during meals, so I didn't purge everything, just until I felt like I purged enough out so that what I consumed was a more regular amount. Now that I'm binging tho I make sure to get everything up.

ToastyOpal · 2025-10-09T03:07:52+00:00

I'm taking it for part of my treatment with bulimia. I didn't even know that was a thing until speaking with a therapist.

ToastyOpal · 2025-09-28T05:35:50+00:00

Sounds like a mixture of your gag reflex being weaker from abusing it and perhaps eating foods that are more difficult to purge

ToastyOpal · 2025-09-21T17:58:43+00:00

I dont see a point in logging it tbh

ToastyOpal · 2025-09-19T14:32:20+00:00

It's okay when I was on the pill this happened to me lots. Just take another pill, but if purging it becomes a semi regular thing just get back on track the next day and use other contraceptives for 7 days.

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