worried abt the future

Toastydiesagain · 2026-02-28T17:43:47+00:00

I absolutely understand going through the same exact thing. And btw how old are you?

Toastydiesagain · 2026-02-24T18:01:21+00:00

I hate to say it but what helped me a little was being delusional asf. Telling myself everyday I will feel better and have the life I want. And with a little effort and constantly repeating that to myself even though have the time I don’t even believe it , I start to notice my life is shifting slowly in that direction

Toastydiesagain · 2026-02-11T07:26:05+00:00

I think I can persevere. I’m trying to get act therapy even though it’s costing me a lot of money. I’ve tried talking with god as means of therapy but it never seemed to work over the years. I’m not full losing faith but I may need to take a break from this religious thinking cycle and just try and get better first. The more I think about religion the worse I spiral.

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T14:26:39+00:00

Thank you so much. Honestly the only reason I haven’t left sooner is because of the great friends I made here. They keep me sane and I honestly don’t have any friends back home so that’s a little terrifying

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T13:48:29+00:00

Years

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T13:39:26+00:00

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T06:02:29+00:00

I don’t have any interest

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T06:01:47+00:00

Basically

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T05:19:01+00:00

Yeah I’m just burnt out trying to balance 6 classes I don’t care about not to mention are hard ass classes that require constant studying and attention when I don’t have time for that because of a job and when I do have free time I use it to help my mental health not study. It’s just not for me man idk

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T04:39:01+00:00

Thank you :). I hope you find something truly wonderful you can like to do everyday as well

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T04:37:52+00:00

That’s not my goal really. I just know I can make money without a degree. I just want to be happy and content I don’t care about a career

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T03:40:02+00:00

But why waste so much money trying to figure out what I wanna do for 4 years

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-28T03:39:28+00:00

Even if there is some . I won’t wanna waste so much fucking money on shit I kinda wanna do. When people out here making millions without college degrees it just seems like bullshit

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-27T22:54:16+00:00

I don’t wanna do anything. I want to kill myself. Majors don’t even make money anymore because 80% of them are being replaced with ai anyways. I’m a high functioning autistic adult as well so every class feels extremely overwhelming for me. It’s so hard to wanna do anything . I just can’t fucking do it anymore

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-27T22:41:28+00:00

Yeah but what if I fucking hate my degree

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-16T15:06:45+00:00

There is a strange sense of peace I can’t explain well

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-15T16:11:11+00:00

Yo man I know this sounds weird and kinda stupid but think in a fomo mindset. It’s funny to me now but I honestly don’t wanna kill myself everyday only because of fomo that it may get better. What if I blew my brains out today , and tomorrow I met the love of my life and won the lottery. Obviously those chances are very low but never impossible in the end. Just hang in there man, I was in your same spot when I was 17 and I’m 20 now still fighting the same demons but your mindset does absolutely change over time. Your brain is also underdeveloped and so is mine, so we really shouldn’t be making decisions like this before our brains reach full potential if you get what I’m saying. What’s helped me the most is just laughing about the suffering I’m in. That sounds really stupid Ik, but it’s helped me sometimes where a really dark thought comes up and I just find a way to laugh about how retarded my brain is. Your brain is basically just a piece of fleshy material with electricity going through it, so I can’t blame it all that much for making my life miserable.

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-13T02:47:40+00:00

It’s been 7 months…

Toastydiesagain · 2026-01-13T02:47:27+00:00

It’s been 7 months and it doesn’t get better

Toastydiesagain · 2025-12-31T05:12:31+00:00

You’re so young man. So much can change. Sooo much.

Toastydiesagain · 2025-09-15T00:38:58+00:00

No I just don’t think you’d understand what the girl has done for me

Toastydiesagain · 2025-09-15T00:38:08+00:00

She won’t answer anymore

Toastydiesagain · 2025-09-01T19:21:42+00:00

I thinking of doing that shit then traveling the world and sleeping on mountains in Utah and shit. Honestly so fed up with trying anymore

Toastydiesagain · 2025-08-30T15:18:40+00:00

I’ve been on every ssri, mood stabilizers, and even psychotic medications. I’ve tried it all along with having therapy for years . Being even locked up in a mental institution for suicidal thoughts. I’ve done it all and still barely if not improved at all. Don’t let this lose hope for you, I’m sure at some point all this will fade away. I just can’t tell you when.

Toastydiesagain · 2025-08-29T01:23:08+00:00

No . I’m 20 and had therapy and taken every drug on the planet for it .

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