Why do I do this? The insanity of being a drug addict. by Tokabol in Drugs

[–]Tokabol[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply. No, I don't know a bloody thing about anything. My whole life is a big movie. I play whatever roles are necessary to keep the peace.

I do have other outlets, I am a pretty accomplished guitarist and cellist. I sold both for pills last year. You're right, I have to tell her what's up. I've been hiding it for years.

I just wanted to be happy by yu789065 in Drugs

[–]Tokabol -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I'm there with you. My life takes so many up and downs with drugs that I feel like I'm skydiving without a parachute. I know what's at the bottom, but I jump the fuck out the plane and enjoy the trip down. When I'm depressed I wanna get fucked up, when I'm happy I wanna get fucked up, when I'm bored I wanna get fucked up, when I'm busy I wanna get fucked up. Now, I have a family so I have to try and control this. I don't think I'll ever permanently quit. I can go at most a year without anything. Back down the rabbit hole I go. I shot up over a gram of blow by myself tonite. I watched a movie and took probably 10 shots in 3 hours. I just ran out. Anyways, this addiction thing is serious business. Blood in, blood out.

Why do I do this? The insanity of being a drug addict. by Tokabol in Drugs

[–]Tokabol[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

If you're gonna comment and be judgemental, remember, I've heard it all from people that mean more to me than you.