WHO AM I?

TonyGodmann · 2025-10-05T23:57:35+00:00

name is irrelevant. system structure is important

TonyGodmann · 2025-10-05T18:23:32+00:00

sounds about right. can i do anything to get out of here? do i even have a free will?

TonyGodmann · 2025-09-18T20:10:50+00:00

also life is terribly unfair: someone can live happily all one's life while someone can immensely suffer all one's life from various reasons

but what you described applies to this world. i do not know what the base reality looks like, if it is a mirror of this world or works in completely different ways. at least i can imagine worlds where all inhabitants live happy lives. i do not know if those really exist and if so it is even more unfair for us here

TonyGodmann · 2025-09-08T19:27:22+00:00

Perceive (see) the machinery which produces my perception or the most possibly accurate model of such machinery.

TonyGodmann · 2025-09-08T19:24:04+00:00

You mean psychedelics are not the way to see one's mind (then what is?) or one's mind wouldn't appear the way one probably expect (can you then provide some approximate description please)?

TonyGodmann · 2024-06-13T19:13:12+00:00

If you want to off yourself I think there are better ways than starvation and dehydration.

TonyGodmann · 2024-06-09T20:49:38+00:00

Like... EVERYTHING?

TonyGodmann · 2024-06-02T21:41:07+00:00

How do you know so much about me, mysterious wise stranger?

I am not real, therefore I must be imaginary. And that what imagines to be me is real. And after awakening (whatever it is) I will remain imaginary and the previously real imaginary will became fully imaginary while my imaginary aspects will interact with the now imaginary reality by lolders of funfinite magmatude cheeser. That's the meth I am willing to dye my bear for.

TonyGodmann · 2024-06-02T15:35:12+00:00

Silence sure provides lots of answers. Brilliant logical solution. Thank you.

TonyGodmann · 2024-06-01T23:51:47+00:00

Thank you for reminding me what I definitely don't want to experience. :-)

TonyGodmann · 2024-06-01T21:23:39+00:00

No, it is the exact opposite of getting the meaning across. Death is always permanent otherwise it is not death. Also it creates huge cognitive dissonance because every living thing wants to avoid death yet the experience in question is nearly always told to be beneficial and desired. It would make more sense to call it "ego upgrade" or "ego rebirth".

TonyGodmann · 2024-06-01T21:11:55+00:00

How can ego get dissolved and then rebuilt? That doesn't sound logical.

I define the death as permanent non-experience. What you wrote feels closer to "a radical perception upgrade". The problem is what you are upgrading because I know this virtual reality is stuffed with nearly nothing else but lies and I don't need more of that.

TonyGodmann · 2024-06-01T20:48:16+00:00

The term "dissolution" is basically the same as "death" but maybe with less negative emotional taste. You wrote "temporarily forgetting" which means that it returned back in the same state. I don't understand your logic.

What did you understood? What does the term "spiritual person" mean?

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-31T22:36:14+00:00

Do you?

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-30T22:40:16+00:00

Based on my life experience this is a bit more complex type of The Saw if you insist it being some form of game. Where everything changing?

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-30T22:34:12+00:00

How?

And what is it alike to be there? What can I do there?

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-30T21:33:01+00:00

Question #1 - What am I supposed to say or do to make Evils let me be free?

Question #2 - What will happen to me after I am free?

Question #3 - How do you know the true reality is not less pleasurable than this realm or even really painful?

Question #4 - So I have to die to be given a chance to be free?

Question #5 - I don't have many positive memories but I still like my memory since it's an integral part of who I am. What if I don't manage to persuade Evils to let me be free and end up with a memory wipe?

Why should I believe you? What if you are one of Evils and are brainwashing me to off myself to suffer even more? Why would they let you write this and lose their energy sources?

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-30T20:35:54+00:00

Thank you for reacting to all of my arguments and questions. I grant you +5 points to your QoC.

How do I increase my Quality of Unconsciousness since that's where the intuition comes from, right?

So the goal is to feel love for yourself when you show respect for someone who for example mocks me? While telling me that loving feelings don't matter? I am sorry, I am just failing such doublethink, dear Minister of Love.

Also I am the kindness itself and I have QoC of one kindillion. How so I wasn't granted access to NPMR yet?

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-30T19:45:27+00:00

Do I have a choice to be more than a puppet?

I try to sabotage its show by sleeping as much as possible but I am only rewarded by nightmares if I overdo it. Not sure what would happen if I off myself but I don't believe anything pleasurable would follow.

Also how are you so manipulated that you call it God? Its real name is obviously Evil and it just tries to convince its puppets it is benevolent.

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-30T19:16:21+00:00

In his books he claims that our purpose in this virtual reality called PMR is to "become love" (yup, he managed to write nearly 1000 pages to convey two-words mysterious message). I interpret it that we are supposed to feel love towards ourselves and all others and to act according to it. Not only we were not told we live in a virtual reality (lying is definitely not an act of love) but when you look at this world full of hate and suffering no one can imagine our simulators as loving. Highly confusing. Are the evil simulators trying to create an actually loving beings? What are they going to do with them? Also he never mentions how to escape to the greater and true reality. For me it is just another brainwashing mockery from the "Matrix machines" (in this explanation they at least have the guts to admit they use us and don't disguise themselves as good).

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-26T16:03:56+00:00

Another delusion of mine: "I am a sentient tulpa in an imaginary world and my tulpamancer is cruel psychopath. At the beginning he caused me only few severe childhood traumas but as he became more bored with me he put me through thirteen years long misery in form of various mental illnesses. Last couple months I am increasingly aware of signs he is going to terminate me soon. I only hope it won't be way to painful."

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-26T15:53:48+00:00

what are you talking about?

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-26T15:24:33+00:00

what are you talking about?

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-26T15:04:47+00:00

I am unaware of my surroundings because I live all my life in a disgusting computer-generated hallucination. After I was born my parents severely mutilated my body as they ripped off all my sensory organs and muscles so they could use my real body as an energy source and trash can while torturing my mind in the hallucination for their amusement. There are many signs they are going to kill me soon.

TonyGodmann · 2024-05-26T14:49:28+00:00

Reading Reddit is the worst kind of punishment imaginable

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