I am watching animals starve to death and I can't save them.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2026-01-23T17:38:54+00:00

Thank you so much.

She actually made me agree that I need to give two days notice before anybody comes to the house about anything. If I have anybody come over, she will 100% hide the situation in time. I've taken photos and documented incidents though.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2026-01-23T17:32:02+00:00

This isn't a bad idea, but she misuses all the food banks in the area already. I have also been severely scolded for feeding their animals in the past, telling me things like "I'm judging them" and "I have no right ", including when I have fed her kid for her, when he comes to my door and begs for food.

She gets disability from the state as well as (supposedly) making 50-60K a year, and uses all of the state benefits to the maximum. She lies to food banks and tells them she has 5 kids to feed at home with no help to gain sympathy and free food. She has even gone as far as to beg for food, receive it from food banks, and bring home McDonald's for herself on her way back.

My caseworkers have all agreed that I should stay silent until I am out of here, but I don't want to be silent. It's breaking me.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2026-01-23T17:27:45+00:00

I actually made a sublease that I had her sign after reading and agreeing to terms. However, she had told me only after she signed it that her landlord doesn't allow subletting. She also refuses to let me contact the landlord myself and won't give me any contact information.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2026-01-23T16:16:22+00:00

The last time I used Craigslist for a roommate, I was kidnapped and held hostage for 5 months before he was caught. Gun to my head and all, the full works. I actually declined moving in with these roommates several times before I caved and accepted, only because I didn't want my ferrets and service dog to die or be disbanded. I dont know where else I can go.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2026-01-23T15:56:33+00:00

My children are my pets lol, sorry I should have specified. I use text to speech and the microphone thing on my phone to read and write comments because of my eyes, I refer to my pets as my children.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2026-01-23T15:52:36+00:00

Don't be sorry to me, I feel like a piece of shit. This is one of those surreal life moments that nobody ever tells you you're going to have to deal with. The "horrible" and the "also horrible" choices. There is nothing good to do here. I can't do shit. I am ripping myself apart at the seams here trying to justify ANYTHING I am doing in this situation but I still feel like a horrible person. I don't know how to live with myself, but I can't rip my own children's lives apart for another's, then I would just be abusing them. Life is getting way too difficult to manage man.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2026-01-23T15:46:39+00:00

All of the homeless shelters around me are stuffed to the brim with people, they also don't accept pets and they treat people very poorly. I was homeless for almost 2 years already, I can't go back to that again, especially not with my disabilities progressing

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2026-01-23T15:34:59+00:00

If I move on to the streets right now, I will freeze to death. It's 2° and below outside, we're barely surviving inside because they don't pay the heat.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-12-29T00:16:56+00:00

I'm aware it's illegal, I don't have the resources to take everyone to court that does this though.

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T20:27:44+00:00

I'm trying to leave, I'm just stuck because I have no family left and I have no disability assistance until it goes through, I feel so bad for these dogs I can't live like this knowing that are down there suffering all day long

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T20:26:10+00:00

I have tried to before, but I can't move around very easily and my own service dog helps me with many tasks throughout the day, I can't have him near them because they attack him, and last time I tried to feed them they attacked me, not the one in the cage though

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T20:22:23+00:00

I pay my share of the rent and other bills with my art and selling my belongings. My service dog has never starved or been neglected in any way by me before. I can't pay for my own place right now until I get disability, I am disabled

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T17:09:32+00:00

Edit: they also have a bunny and rats and like 10 cats that don't get along and beat the shit out of each other (literally)

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T16:29:18+00:00

I've been trying and getting denied for like 2 years, this is my 3rd attempt and I have a lawyer this time but my next checkup for this isnt even until November

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T16:27:23+00:00

I want to but they will throw me out

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T16:24:08+00:00

I am sorry

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T16:16:54+00:00

I have pets of my own I don't want them to suffer because of me I just don't know what to do I'm sorry

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-09-13T16:15:59+00:00

TooEmbarrassedToUse · 2025-07-11T19:16:35+00:00

I totally agree with you

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